Death is My Story

Did I fall? Did I die? All these voices in my head, tell me I can fly, but it slipped, facing towards the ground, all because I tripped, racing to the sound, I’ve talked about my demons, all my pain and suffering, running around with no reasons, where are my angels, did I commit some sort of treason? I see the lightning, I hear the thunder, soon I’ll be hit, thinking of the wonders, of life, and what’s under, all this hell and pain, now I know not to mutter, all of this hate, all of these lies, no matter what I do, it will never really surprise me, feeling defeated, is what I need, I’ll never win my battles, I’ll never stay the same, my soul is so hurt, this all feels like a game, that has no ending, no boss to beat, just only my shame, I can’t back out now, that was never my way, so let’s sit and think, how life is so quick, it passes if you would blink, but I just stare, not to miss a thing, cause I am scared, too die, and to never see me believe, so I have poured, all of my heart and soul, into this rhyme, but don’t sing along, it is painful, if you read my words wrong, so step back, take a breath, feel yourself breathe, in a world, life so damn cold, it could shiver your knees, to the point, that you fall, to plant that very seed, hope and pray, maybe someday, you’ll never have to see, all my hell, all my hate, just the thought of me, lets move on together, let’s us die, let’s be buried, hopefully not alive, as we hold our hands, and reach for the sky, that day will never come, for it was a lie, after every storm, there’s a rainbow, but don’t expect it, gotta work hard, gotta stay sober, all of these drugs, make me feel like I’m just left overs, I’m sorry, I’m so sorry for all of me, I’m so sorry so let me be, all of this pain, all of this grief, there is so much rain, I thought I could even reach, happiness, love, warmth, peace, pain, sadness, hate, greed, it’s a war, a battle within me, I’m to far gone, please don’t try to save me

When I die, I pray to go to heaven, when I fly, I’ll just fall back to hell, I’m not surprised, this is surely my lesson, not to reach the sky, but to be hit by all this aggression, god could save me, but I don’t feel like I deserve it, all of these blessings, turned into life sessions, maybe one day I’ll learn, not to be scared, not to be insane, so when I die, I’ll pray to be saved

When I die, I pray to go to heaven, when I fly, I’ll just fall back to hell, I’m not surprised, this is surely my lesson, not to reach the sky, but to be hit by all this aggression, god could save me, but I don’t feel like I deserve it, all of these blessings, turned into life sessions, maybe one day I’ll learn, not to be scared, not to be insane, so when I die, I’ll pray to be saved