Drowning in the sea I created

How can I sit here and cry, isn’t it crazy too think that we will all die, life should have a reason, isn’t that right? Or am I so dead to believe all these lies, broken heart my head is so torn, life keeps moving forward ever since I was born, time keeps ticking the day I was formed, if it keeps raining will soon see a huge storm, I’m like a needle in a haystack, no one can find me, I really can’t be mad, my emotions are hidden, I never seem sad, suicide on my mind, I feel like a drag, all my morning thoughts are disgusting in taste, all this death in my mind should all be erased, hoping I find god before I go fucking insane, the demons on my shoulder tried breaking my way

This sea that I made,

From the pain that I crave,

All the sins I’ve commit,

Please forgive what I did,

I know I’ll die alone,

In a place I call home,

So before you take my soul,

Just know I am so cold

Ripping my heart out too give it to you, my love wasn’t enough? I don’t even know the truth, back in the day we were just young, we were stupidly in love, getting married was interesting and fun, now you’ve pushed me away now I’m on the run, I wished you cared for me, I wish I wasn’t dumb, I thought I knew you, I guess you were done, I sat here for so long, thinking how life could have been, what did I do wrong, my sea gets deeper every time I hear our song, not knowing our future, god these feelings of hurt feel so damn strong

This sea that I made,

From the pain that I crave,

All the sins I’ve commit,

Please forgive what I did,

I know I’ll die alone,

In a place I call home,

So before you take my soul,

Just know I am so cold

Fuck me! I would’ve died for you no matter whose fault I’d take the blame and provide for you counting each day down to the minute everyone second feels like a headache know damn well I can’t ask for forgiveness even if I died my life won’t be forgiven

This sea that I made,

From the pain that I crave,

All the sins I’ve commit,

Please forgive what I did,

I know I’ll die alone,

In a place I call home,

So before you take my soul,

Just know I am so cold,

Because I am cold,

Gods taken my soul,

From my body that is home,

Where I was so alone,

I was never forgiven,

For all my sins I’ve committed,

Rid of the pain I crave,

From this sea that I have made