Dear God

[Intro]
Dear god
Dear, dear
Dear god
Dear, dear
[Verse]
Dear god, I need you to understand my words and my thoughts, all that brought me here and everything I lost
Please god, I’m feeling just enough bravery to speak my mind, opening up to you felt like a crime, I just hope I opened up in time
Oh god, my fear and anger won’t leave, life is to short but I’m on my knees, for one second can I listen, can’t I just freeze
No god, this isn’t gonna be like last night, where I decided to take a flight to your home, just to realize it wasn’t my time, and so back to earth feeling more wise
[Chorus]
Now god, please undo what I’ve become
I’ve never even knew where I came from
All those eyes are now staring at me
Just judge me already so I can be done
[Verse]
Oh lord, lets take it back when I was born, my damn mother left me, I’ve never felt so torn, to be brought into this world, feeling like I should’ve never been formed
Ever since she left, all the time flew by, feeling so lonely, I felt like I went deaf
Then I started to grow up, making absolute no friends, cleaning up loose ends, just all depends on the situation 
My problems come and go like all these questions, feeling like I’m going home with all this depression, no exceptions 
Dear god, this plot is about to thicken, killing sweet time, crossing that road like I was the chicken
For once in my life the clock started tickin, just done with all this misleading information, 
Oh god, penalize my darken soul, emptiness surrounds me, hoping one day I’ll just fold
Drilling these words into my head, judgement day will come, as soon as I fall down dead, what did the reaper say, what choices did I make, life is to far from great
Holy god, I take your hand to the end, take me to your holy land, give me access too your plans, don’t leave me just to depend, on me, myself and I 
Was I doom to die? Wasn’t I suppose to survive? I held back all these lies just to be lied too, stepping into the wrong room
But god, hold myself accountable, even if it’s frown upon till, the day ends and I have to pay my bills, it’s such a thrill
To be underneath your boot, to feel the heat when the gun comes out and shoots
Forever god, I never stopped a thought, 
From the ground up, you have brought me hope and prayers that taught, me to love and not to fight my reasons
But these devils cause so much treason,
I need to battle these demons, to send them back to hell, where they will all dwell, but before I fell, I had God to tell me about life and how it’s so well, to wait for the bells
But my life has been shitty, all the way from the beginning, but realizing life wasn’t about me, but about the lord himself, as long as I climb his shelf, I couldn’t care if I was wearing a belt
The lord, loves me for who I am, no matter what I do, I want to be forgiven, from all my sins, doesn’t that sound like a win, to me it does, with every fiber of my skin
Dear lord, my last words will depend, but this is the end so amen
[outro]
Amen

Rap, sad, depressing