Dear God

Dear god

Dear, dear

Dear god

Dear, dear

Dear god, I need you to understand my words and my thoughts, all that brought me here and everything I lost

Please god, I’m feeling just enough bravery to speak my mind, opening up to you felt like a crime, I just hope I opened up in time

Oh god, my fear and anger won’t leave, life is to short but I’m on my knees, for one second can I listen, can’t I just freeze

No god, this isn’t gonna be like last night, where I decided to take a flight to your home, just to realize it wasn’t my time, and so back to earth feeling more wise

Now god, please undo what I’ve become

I’ve never even knew where I came from

All those eyes are now staring at me

Just judge me already so I can be done

Oh lord, lets take it back when I was born, my damn mother left me, I’ve never felt so torn, to be brought into this world, feeling like I should’ve never been formed

Ever since she left, all the time flew by, feeling so lonely, I felt like I went deaf

Then I started to grow up, making absolute no friends, cleaning up loose ends, just all depends on the situation

My problems come and go like all these questions, feeling like I’m going home with all this depression, no exceptions

Dear god, this plot is about to thicken, killing sweet time, crossing that road like I was the chicken

For once in my life the clock started tickin, just done with all this misleading information,

Oh god, penalize my darken soul, emptiness surrounds me, hoping one day I’ll just fold

Drilling these words into my head, judgement day will come, as soon as I fall down dead, what did the reaper say, what choices did I make, life is to far from great

Holy god, I take your hand to the end, take me to your holy land, give me access too your plans, don’t leave me just to depend, on me, myself and I

Was I doom to die? Wasn’t I suppose to survive? I held back all these lies just to be lied too, stepping into the wrong room

But god, hold myself accountable, even if it’s frown upon till, the day ends and I have to pay my bills, it’s such a thrill

To be underneath your boot, to feel the heat when the gun comes out and shoots

Forever god, I never stopped a thought,

From the ground up, you have brought me hope and prayers that taught, me to love and not to fight my reasons

But these devils cause so much treason,

I need to battle these demons, to send them back to hell, where they will all dwell, but before I fell, I had God to tell me about life and how it’s so well, to wait for the bells

But my life has been shitty, all the way from the beginning, but realizing life wasn’t about me, but about the lord himself, as long as I climb his shelf, I couldn’t care if I was wearing a belt

The lord, loves me for who I am, no matter what I do, I want to be forgiven, from all my sins, doesn’t that sound like a win, to me it does, with every fiber of my skin

Dear lord, my last words will depend, but this is the end so amen

Amen