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[Intro (eerie)]Funny how they laugh…
Till you stop laughing with ‘em…
[Verse 1] I been smiling through pain like it’s all a joke
Cracked mask on my face but it never broke
Everybody sees me like I’m doing fine
But they don’t see the war inside
Got a past I replay like a broken scene
Every wrong decision still controls me
Every word I said I can’t undo
Still echo back like they aimed at you
They clap when you’re up, disappear when you fall
Say they got your back, but they don’t at all
So I learned real quick to hide my pain
Turn a dark storm into light rain
[Hook (haunting)] I smile like I’m fine, but I’m losing me
Got a war in my mind that they never see
They laugh at the pain, call it comedy
But the joke ain’t funny when it’s cutting deep
Yeah I smile like I’m fine, play the part again
Hide the cracks, let ‘em think I’m a different man
But the truth in the dark when I’m alone
I don’t even recognize who I’ve become
[Verse 2 (more intensity)] Now it’s getting louder, I can’t mute the sound
All the doubt in my head keeps circling ‘round
Saying “you the reason everything went wrong”
“You been broken inside all along”
I start believing what the voice might say
Seeing my life in a darker way
Losing grip on the man I was
Questioning what all this pain is for
I tried to fix it, tried to make it right
But regret don’t fade, it just grows at night
Like a shadow that sticks when lights go low
Like a wound that heals but still won’t close
[Hook (stronger)] I smile like I’m fine, but I’m losing me…
[Bridge (stripped, emotional)]
If I break, would they finally see?
Would they care what’s inside of me?
Or just laugh like they always do…
Till I turn into something new…
[Verse 3 (breaking point → awareness)]
I ain’t trying to snap, just trying to cope
Carrying this weight without losing hope
But it’s hard when the past has a grip so tight
And it pulls me back every time I fight
Yeah I made mistakes, I own my wrongs
More than the sum of what I did wrong
Still trying to grow, still trying to change
Even if I’m stuck in this mental cage
I don’t wanna be what the pain creates
Don’t wanna turn cold, don’t wanna hate
So I fight that voice, even when it’s loud
Even when it tries to drag me down
[Final Hook (full emotion)]
I smile like I’m fine, but I’m healing slow
Every scar, every bruise, yeah it starts to show
They can laugh all they want, they don’t know my fight
I’ve been battling demons just to feel alright
[Outro (soft, fading)]
Funny how they only see what you show ‘em…
Never what’s underneath it…
I’ve been carrying this weight so long…
I don’t even know who I was before it…
Every mistake… every word… every scar…
It don’t leave…
Maybe it ain’t about forgetting…
Maybe it’s about learning how to live with it…
Learning how to stand… even when it’s heavy…
Yeah… they can laugh… they can look… they can judge…
They don’t hear the silence when I’m by myself…
They don’t feel this… but I’m still here…
Still fighting… still trying… still… smiling…
Details
GeneratedApr 5, 2026
Duration3:54
LanguageEnglish
Style
Aggressive dark rap, chaotic energy, hard-hitting 808s, snare, hi-hats, pounding piano, emotional, intense, 110 BPM
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