“Lovey Dovey Words”

I’m tired of all the lovey dovey when it just don’t mean thang if feelings could be impenetrable then come and shield this one up with all of it But never really felt no change Pat me on the back you doing great Yeah pat me on the back doesn’t feel like it’s fixing the weight of not having someone who could love me the way I’d love them unconditionally but tell me keep going like I ain’t been doing that every day Give me another little phrase that you probably always say Then go about your business while I’m sitting with the same I hate to always go to the same but it’s always been the same just wanna find something different in this pain Everybody got advice when they ain’t living in your place Everybody says you’re strong when they love to hear what’s not told the truth but

Pat me on the back I’m doing great

Tell me it’ll pass just give it another day

Lovey dovey words don’t make a damn thing change I can hear what you’re saying and still feel the same but Pat me on the back Im doing great

Smile for a minute so nobody sees my fake

I appreciate the love but I don’t know what to say When everybody says I’m healing

But I still feel the same

Don’t get it twisted I know people mean well But a motivational sentence ain’t breaking the spell I can say I’m doing better which I am but I can’t make it sound convincing cuz I’m right back to alone knowing what the hell is missing from me

I don’t need an answer I know it’s easy to see Maybe there isn’t answer and every battle doesn’t end because the day’s done I can’t keep saying that I don’t hate some Parts some parts of what I’m dealing with while everybody says you’ll be fine, I’m Fine? I’ve been trying to move forward through all this but lost through all of it cuz I wasn’t ready to deal with the aftermath of it I ain’t asking for pity I ain’t asking for tears I’m just tired of pretending every word is what I need to hear

“You’re doing good” Well I hope you’re right

Cuz sometimes doing good still feels like losing every night Sometimes making progress ain’t a straight and pretty line Sometimes all I fucking did today was make it through the time but

Pat me on the back Im doing great

Tell me it’ll pass just give it another day

Lovey dovey words don’t make a damn thing change I can hear what you’re saying and still feel the same but Pat me on the back Im doing great

Smile for a minute so nobody sees my fake

I appreciate the love but I don’t know what to say When everybody says I’m healing

But I still feel the same

Maybe don’t tell me it’ll all be alright

Just sit with me for a minute when it doesn’t feel right you don’t gotta talk you don’t gotta fix the darkness you don’t gotta bring the light Sometimes being there is more than giving me advice I don’t like to hear yeah Id know that you’d care

I ain’t taking that away I’m just saying certain words start sounding all the same When you start to hear ‘em every single day but I guess

Pat me on the back

“You doing great.”

Am I?