What I Assumed

Thinking about the nights when I barely felt alive Thinking you were something that could keep me on the rise Reading every message like a meaning was inside Turning little moments into reasons you were mine But you never said it I just let my head edit Every memory together till the fantasy embedded Now I’m looking at the ending and I finally fucking get it I was building up a future while you never even said it Damn it How’d I let it go that far Made a whole connection from a couple little sparks of course I’m the fool

Thought you left the door cracked

Maybe I could have you, your heart

Meanwhile you were living life

And I was reading fucking stars

You never said you wanted me

I just wanted you to

Never said you needed me

I just needed you to

Never made a promise

I just dreamed you’d come through

Now I’m stuck admitting

What I didn’t wanna know was true

You never said you wanted me

I just wanted you to

Never said you needed me

I just needed you to

Maybe I was holding onto something

You already knew the answer to

Now the hardest part is knowing

I can’t put that shit on you

Coming off the same pain

Running through the same brain

Every little thought turning into another migraine I became addicted to a version of the outcome Thinking if I waited long enough I’d finally have one

Chance at what something you ain’t asking for I was at the window while you never opened up the door kept convincing myself maybe you were scared of something more But maybe you just didn’t feel what I was feeling for you or maybe it’s just much much more harsher That’s a harder truth

But it’s probably closer too

I don’t wanna make a villain out of somebody who Never gave me guarantees

Never said she’d follow through

I was filling every silence with the answer that I wanted you to choose

You never said you wanted me

I just wanted you to

Never said you needed me

I just needed you to

Never made a promise

I just dreamed you’d come through

Now I’m stuck admitting

What I didn’t wanna know was true

You never said you wanted me

I just wanted you to

Never said you needed me

I just needed you to

Maybe I was holding onto something

You already knew the answer to

Now the hardest part is knowing

I can’t put that shit on you

yeah I don’t even know if it hurts

Watching you do what you do while I’m questioning my worth But trying to keep you happy ain’t something that should make my feelings worse you not responding ain’t proof that I deserved to be there first Maybe that’s the lesson making me wait for possession Cuz wanting someone’s heart doesn’t automatically make it acceptance

Its hard to say I miss your presence but

Still respect the distance

I told you I can be patient but when it’s a consistent thing it gets a little outdated

Id hate the ending cuz I’m trying to help your intentions but Im done calling myself stupid Done saying I was used

When half the shit that broke me

Came from what I assumed

I wanted you badly

Maybe more than I should’ve..