I’ve Been Thinking

(Ahem) yeah I’ve been thinking, (what’s that?) that Ive been smoking, (yeah?) this haze up wayy too much, (just haze?) every single blaze up, (ok) will not be my last one..that I’m going to roll on up… (why’s that?) cuz I need affection but not the attention that everyone else wants it for, (oh?) yeah I’ve been thinking, (thinking “thinking”) that I’ve been smoking, (smoking “smoking”) and I won’t give it up,

Yeah, there’s no pretending that I need this fuzziness, (oh yeah) I hurt my own lungs to help my brain but thinking is it actually worth it, (its not) cuz I can’t believe it that one day I won’t roll some up,(“don’t hold your breath”) cuz I couldn’t make it Even with the Demon who really loves his drug, (he does) always begging for the worse trying to make it help (help What?) but then it just hurts and then asking for a hug.. like I’m here for that (I’m not)cuz I’ve been hurt first that I couldn’t tell you what was hurt or what was pierced to make this curse, (who cares) and now I’m here writing what I should not have just slurred, (tell us more) don’t want anyone to start thinking I need help with the lord, (cuz I do)

yeah I’ve been thinking, (what’s that?) that Ive been smoking, (yeah?) this haze up wayy too much, (just haze?) every single blaze up, (ok) will not be my last one..that I’m going to roll on up… (why’s that?) cuz I need affection but not the attention that everyone else wants it for, (oh?) yeah I’ve been thinking, (thinking “thinking”) that I’ve been smoking, (smoking “smoking”) and I won’t give it up,

Do I need it or want it (“yeah”) or could I leave it in the first place, (“nah”) cuz the buzz when I’m on it is nothing more of what I’ve needed on my worse days, (uh huh) Im emptying savings boxes without seeing if I’ll have me my next dinner plate, (“Ooff yeah”) cuz even if something food wise was inside me I wouldn’t be able to deplete it, (oh?) I couldn’t seem to eat it even if it was hand delivered to me yuh, (damn why?) its like satan keeping it from me to get me weaker uh, (oh yeah?) cuz I’ve been through some shit that makes me not completed (“you said completed?”) and some reason my anxiety attacks my stomach, (“you said attacks?”) (oh no!) but it’s not a problem if I can just get me to sleep through it, (is that right?) but not before another hit or I'm not dreaming right (not at all) I’m just fatiguing like the dark knight, (don’t fight it)

yeah I’ve been thinking, (what’s that?) that Ive been smoking, (yeah?) this haze up wayy too much, (just haze?) every single blaze up, (ok) will not be my last one..that I’m going to roll on up… (why’s that?) cuz I need affection but not the attention that everyone else wants it for, (oh?) yeah I’ve been thinking, (thinking “thinking”) that I’ve been smoking, (smoking “smoking”) and I won’t give it up… (No no, I won’t)[Beat Continues on]