It has returned

I have a recurrent  theme 
 nightmares and dreams
silent but just wanna scream
I’m searching for light like an ultralight beam

I’m lost inside of my mind
you’re lost in a pyramid scheme
this world is so mean
we’re chasing the green
to the point that we kill
how do we build?
somethings that’s real
when people just worry bout money and deals
women and shows and the money and cars
but im just worried bout passion and bars

I give it all I got
and im giving my heart
im taking a shot in the dark 
wont give in at all
i bet on myself 
you will not make the call 

I used to be fine but the pain has returned
there is a lot of things that I have learned 
I met some people and they did me dirty 
the line in the sand so the bridges get burnt 
I don’t know who I am but I know what I’m worth 
I don’t know where it came from
but it has returned
yeah it has returned 
yeah it has returned 


they say I have a dark mind 
empty soul
where I do go
when the love feels fake 
and my heart turns cold 
I don’t know
all I know is that I gotta find the path 
right now cant wait cause this life too fast 

over in the blink of the eye 
i wake up in the morning I don’t know if I will die 
so I give what I got while I’m here and still alive 

i don’t know about you 
but I know about i 
i don’t know about you
but I know about us
i don’t know about life 
i don’t know about love 
but I do know grind
and I do know trust 
and I do know god he’s right there up above 

i don’t know my angels
but I know my demons 
i always dismiss them but they keep on coming back 
so I think it’s bout time I hit em with a strap 

came from the bottom 
now I’m bout to elevate 
popping these bottles now it’s time to celebrate 
terminate all of my enemies 
time to eliminate
 

they ask me what I want I tell em 
everything I never had

shit like maybe my mom and my dad

in the same room 
in the same place 
in the same time 

split up at a young age 
like what the fuck is commitment 

had to teach myself 

I want the good days back 
back when I was twelve

to scared to grow up but now I’m grown up 
I’m with the homies now and we roll up
I see the cops and start running 
and no I am not bragging 

just telling my story 
and things that have happened 

I’m feeling so lost but I know I’m not alone
got a lot of memories that I like to keep close
as the cold wind blows
feel my heart get cold
only 27 but I feel so old

maybe I’m just an old soul
either way I am who I am
can’t stop gotta reach all my goals 

I don’t like to think about the things I can’t control
you gotta learn to love yourself 
so your fine if you are alone
and they say time is money well I need a loan 
can I go back to the days as a teen?
They tell me that life’s strange nah shit ain’t ever really what it seems
we all in the same movie but we all in different scenes 

I have a recurrent  theme 
 nightmares and dreams
silent but just wanna scream
I’m searching for light like an ultralight beam

Heavy rock, include orchestra in the background, rapid drums and guitar, male and female vocals singing