Last letter

You made me feel safe 
far away from the loudness of reality
your voice was music to my ears because the sound of it was so peaceful and elegant 
the glare from your eyes had a reflection
that acted as a screen to show me memories that we have made and it always reminded me why we had such a connection

the way your fingers would foxtrot across my skin felt like falling rose pedals
but it’s bittersweet because the only reason the pedals fell was because the rose was dying 

I did everything that I could to keep it alive
but maybe my water was poisonous 
a mixture of insecurity and intense fear 
the fear of losing the one thing I wanted most 

you used to lay in my arms and fall asleep on my chest while we talked all night 
and now the only time we converse is when it’s me and your ghost  

most people are afraid of not doing enough 
but I did the complete opposite 
I did way too much too fast and you were over exposed

I don’t blame you for not talking to me I just wish I knew the reason why
so I could have some closure from it all and get it off of my mind
I write these poems and even a book for you
but a simple text or conversation just isn’t worth your time 

loving you is a bad idea anyway
so many red flags I overlooked like I was colorblind

I had tunnel vision almost as if you were the only thing my eyes could see
I got lost in the aura of your galaxy
pulled in by the gravity of your essence 
like a black hole with no escape 

we turned out to be a crime scene 
not a love scene
instead of what could have one day been vacations and wedding rings
we were murder and caution tape

I wanted to form a covenant 
but all I ever meant to you was a living sacrifice 
ritual 
you cut me open just to watch me bleed

I was always there for you but when were you ever there for me?

I no longer find peace with the sound of your voice I find peace in the singing of birds and
the voice of God 
I no longer get lost in your eyes 
they’ve gone stale and dry

I could forgive you for doing what you’ve done to me but only if you make the attempt so if you ever come looking for me I’m not that hard to find 
goodbye 

Emotional, ethereal, piano, progressive metal core, violin, 808 synth bass, male vocals, haunting, slow