Can’t promise perfection

I can’t promise you perfection but promise my best

so baby let your walls down please just give it a rest

cause I’m not like the rest

hope I’m passing the test

and every single time you touch me

got me loosing my breath

but at this point I’m feeling lost

gotta follow the steps

cause if you’re not right by my side then I’m better off dead

but it’s so funny ever since you left I’m better ahead

but I just feel so damn alone without you right in my bed

depression kicking in

another day that I overslept

i overthink everything

I’m going way too in depth

I feel the weight on my back from the secrets Ive kept

I tell myself that I don’t love you

but we know that’s it’s false

it’s just me against the world

with my back to the wall

and some days when I wake up

I think of ending it all

then I feel like a bitch

like it’s not that deep

I care way too damn much

but it’s something I need

cause if I let the love go

then I feel like I’m not me

I dream about you every night

and that’s the reason I sleep

I’m running after you

my mother said to follow your dreams

but it’s a nightmare

everything ain’t all what it seems

and its my fault

but im pushing through it all

days get hard and the nights get long

I’ve been looking up to God

and praying I stand strong

I stand inside a crowded room and feel like I don’t belong

I got pain so I release it out in all of my songs

and I’ve been tryna find a way to go and right all my wrongs

I got real friends and I love em all dearly

but it doesn’t change the fact that I’m feeling so fucking empty

they tell me count my blessings

and trust me I got plenty

but I’m trapped in you

lost stuck and feeling afraid

I just want something real

because this life is a game

and even if we dont mean to it’s something we play

I’m at war with myself

between my heart and Brain

I got scars and they bleed

left a permanent stain

if I could let go of this pain

then it’s something I wouldn’t change

and I know it sounds crazy

I know that it sounds strange

but the pain gives meaning to life

so I wouldn’t trade

anything that ever happened

I just want real love

guess I’m old fashioned

I can’t tell what is real

or what I imagined

they say life is a bitch and I know it is

so we dressing up nice for the beauty pageant

tryna hide every flaw

that we got inside

but we wanna be ourselves

so we just can’t decide

stuck inside the middle

switching sides like a Gemini

staying close to God

because I know that it’s him and I

and this cross that I wear

it carries weight don’t it?

and I know I got evil

but I don’t condone it

fighting with the devil every day that’s my biggest opponent

I need deliverance

changes in my temperament

my body is a temple I destroy it to rebuild again

people call me stubborn and that’s true cause I don’t ever quit

I can’t promise you perfection but promise my best

so baby let your walls down please just give it a rest

cause I’m not like the rest