my heart is like a castle with my walls and my guard up
I over analyze everything
I guess it’s tough luck
maybe it’s anxiety
or somethings that’s depriving me
maybe it’s my conscious
maybe it’s intelligence
maybe it’s the fact
I live with demons but I’m heaven sent
surrounded by the serpents in the garden of Eden
it turned to evil
I can’t blame them tho
I’m just like them
I ate the apple
now my heart feeling cold
listening to all their stories
and the life that they chose
will I make it up to heaven?
guess the lord only knows
I put my nose to the grindstone
and pay what I owe
some people say that their a Christian but it’s only for show
we all wear a mask
so we’re hiding ourselves
we cover insecurities
and hope that it sells
when I sleep
in my dreams
only time that I can be myself
I put my heart on these songs
hoping that it helps
I’m the voice
for the ones without a voice
got the Holy Spirit in me
but it’s hard to rejoice
at this point
in my life I know I need to make a choice
let go of the fear
but I’m stuck inside his grip
circulation cutoff
there’s purple in my lips
can’t breathe
now I feel like I’m going under
stuck inside the rain
struck by lightning
I can hear the thunder
I’m carrying my cross
as a weapon
I’m a demon hunter
and they sit and wonder
“ like what’s your next move”
and I’m so ready for the come up
and we don’t ever sleep wide awake when the sun up
man I used to feel lost in this brain fog
now I see it all clear
I’m the big dawg
when they kicked me down
yeah I fought back
god is my best friend
not an emergency contact
ain’t it funny how we treat him that way?
when you have a bad day only time that you pray?
tryna make a deal with him like yo God
if I quit doing these things then can I be saved?
but it don’t work that way
let go of my pain
got a smile on my face
I just had to go and learn how to dance in the rain
and make it through the dark clouds
and the muddy terrain
ain’t it funny how we seek for validation
so open up
just to find out it ain’t fixing the pain
you wanna let go?
first quit pointing a blame
at everything you can find
quit playing these games
and get real
sit and analyze the emotions
you know you feel
quit tryna play them off like it ain’t a big deal
that’s the only way that you will heal
quit thinking that you’re living in hell
you’re not close
only thing that got you stuck is your own damn
brain
every day you sit and cry and you fucking complain
I’m like damn what more do I need to explain?
you’re not fucked in your head
no your perfectly sane
you think your stuck
but in your hands are they keys to the cage
they tell me Von grow up you need to act your age
but I carry more wisdom
than most if I’m being frank
we all got questions
when we think about life
but the answer isn’t clear so we’re drawing a blank
but I know what I’m here for
to make a world a better place
make you laugh, make you feel like you had a good day
Casey_Von
