only time you ever gave a fuck is
when it’s too late
we started off great
but now fighting on a Tuesday
fucking and fighting
I swear the cycle never ends
you treat the truth how I treat your body
you love to make it bend
don’t lie to me baby
I know he ain’t just a friend
but I let you slide over and over
and time again
but it’s time for me to cut it off
put us to an end
I no longer care about you and I said what I meant
I can’t get over all of the wasted time that I spent
and you tell me that you love me
with a hidden intent
you got fired from your job and I covered the rent
the same way you covered lies
behind the set of your lips
you wanna stay afloat?
fuck that
I’m sinking the ship
and ima keep it up front
that’s the way that I live
it’s used to be you and me
now I’m all on my own
and don’t you ever come back try calling my phone
I don’t fuck with you bitch ima let it be known
while you cry inside your sorrow
I’ll be all in my zone
I can’t lie tho
back then you felt like home
I felt so fucking happy
now my heart is a stone
I’ve been moving down
a path and I don’t know where to go
I guess it’s karma, bad luck
you reap what you sow
but I’m no longer hurt about it
cause I’m focused on growth
I’m on the highway to hell
and that’s the shit that I don’t…
like
you told me back then that you wanted a sports bike
I went copped one where is yours?
oh that’s right
every time I try to go sleep it’s a long night
demons in my head that I battle it ain’t
a fair fight
fuck..
gotta make it out the mud
I’m tired of being stuck
my heart is full of ice
there really is no blood
I’m so numb to the pain I can’t feel the cuts
I get drunk and I drink to til I spill my guts
I got vices
atleast im not addicted to drugs
but im addicted to pain
I feel it course through my veins
its time for me to stand up and quit pointing the blame
I know that I can make it out
I got the keys to the cage
I Gave up searching
for the love
that shit is a mess
she a angel in the face but a devil in a dress
I can’t even fucking Blame her cause I stay on demon time
I won’t ever fucking stop
until the day I make her mine
but she keeps on running
so fuck it I’m on the grind
all I want is real love
but I swear it’s so hard to find
try to cut the feelings off
but I’m trapped inside her design
shes a goddess and she knows it
she ain’t afraid show it
she kicks me down
leaving me broken and feeling hopeless
she playing with my heart
I can’t stop her
I can’t control it
this hell that I’m living in
came from all my sins
but I can’t help it I feel so alone
even though I have close friends
I smile when i see em
but really it’s all pretend
please don’t get offended
I just want this pain to end
they’re the reason why I’m still
alive
so why the fuck I treat em like
they wouldn’t give a fuck about
me if I were to go and die
I know that isn’t true
but it’s something the voice inside my mind
tells me when I start to feel happy and I get paralyzed
then I’m back to square one
this cycle here is no fun
I’m crying out for help
I need a shoulder I can lean on
my homie left and moved away
think about him every day
he’s the only one who’s understands
the thoughts inside my brain
that’s a fuckin lie
cause I got others that can do the same
I just make up reasons
do anything just to feel the pain
think that I’m addicted to it
that’s why I can never change
I guess it’s fucking true
I’m really stuck inside my stubborn ways
devil got his hands around my throat
but I won’t lose my faith
born to be the chosen one
I’m tryna live up to the name
yeah cause If I don’t do it
that would be a fucking shame
life is just a game
so tell me what do we really gain?
I gave up searching cause that shit ain’t working
Go ahead baby and desert me
(It’s okay)
I don’t want love if the love feels fake
(No way)