Lost me

only time you ever gave a fuck is

when it’s too late

we started off great

but now fighting on a Tuesday

fucking and fighting

I swear the cycle never ends

you treat the truth how I treat your body

you love to make it bend

don’t lie to me baby

I know he ain’t just a friend

but I let you slide over and over

and time again

but it’s time for me to cut it off

put us to an end

I no longer care about you and I said what I meant

I can’t get over all of the wasted time that I spent

and you tell me that you love me

with a hidden intent

you got fired from your job and I covered the rent

the same way you covered lies

behind the set of your lips

you wanna stay afloat?

fuck that

I’m sinking the ship

and ima keep it up front

that’s the way that I live

it’s used to be you and me

now I’m all on my own

and don’t you ever come back try calling my phone

I don’t fuck with you bitch ima let it be known

while you cry inside your sorrow

I’ll be all in my zone

I can’t lie tho

back then you felt like home

I felt so fucking happy

now my heart is a stone

I’ve been moving down

a path and I don’t know where to go

I guess it’s karma, bad luck

you reap what you sow

but I’m no longer hurt about it

cause I’m focused on growth

I’m on the highway to hell

and that’s the shit that I don’t…

like

you told me back then that you wanted a sports bike

I went copped one where is yours?

oh that’s right

every time I try to go sleep it’s a long night

demons in my head that I battle it ain’t

a fair fight

fuck..

gotta make it out the mud

I’m tired of being stuck

my heart is full of ice

there really is no blood

I’m so numb to the pain I can’t feel the cuts

I get drunk and I drink to til I spill my guts

I got vices

atleast im not addicted to drugs

but im addicted to pain

I feel it course through my veins

its time for me to stand up and quit pointing the blame

I know that I can make it out

I got the keys to the cage

I Gave up searching

for the love

that shit is a mess

she a angel in the face but a devil in a dress

I can’t even fucking Blame her cause I stay on demon time

I won’t ever fucking stop

until the day I make her mine

but she keeps on running

so fuck it I’m on the grind

all I want is real love

but I swear it’s so hard to find

try to cut the feelings off

but I’m trapped inside her design

shes a goddess and she knows it

she ain’t afraid show it

she kicks me down

leaving me broken and feeling hopeless

she playing with my heart

I can’t stop her

I can’t control it

this hell that I’m living in

came from all my sins

but I can’t help it I feel so alone

even though I have close friends

I smile when i see em

but really it’s all pretend

please don’t get offended

I just want this pain to end

they’re the reason why I’m still

alive

so why the fuck I treat em like

they wouldn’t give a fuck about

me if I were to go and die

I know that isn’t true

but it’s something the voice inside my mind

tells me when I start to feel happy and I get paralyzed

then I’m back to square one

this cycle here is no fun

I’m crying out for help

I need a shoulder I can lean on

my homie left and moved away

think about him every day

he’s the only one who’s understands

the thoughts inside my brain

that’s a fuckin lie

cause I got others that can do the same

I just make up reasons

do anything just to feel the pain

think that I’m addicted to it

that’s why I can never change

I guess it’s fucking true

I’m really stuck inside my stubborn ways

devil got his hands around my throat

but I won’t lose my faith

born to be the chosen one

I’m tryna live up to the name

yeah cause If I don’t do it

that would be a fucking shame

life is just a game

so tell me what do we really gain?

I gave up searching cause that shit ain’t working

Go ahead baby and desert me

(It’s okay)

I don’t want love if the love feels fake

(No way)