Shadows On My Bedroom Wall

[Intro]
Yeah
Mm, yeah

[Hook]
Every night I talk to shadows on my bedroom wall
Devil in my cup, but you the one I call
Heart broke, but I still let the pieces fall
If loving you is wrong, I don’t care at all
Tears on ice, I’ve been drowning in the deep end
Henny to the face just to feel like I’m breathing
Everybody left when my wounds started bleeding
You stitched me up just to leave me when I needed

[Verse 1]
Cold world, but my veins stay heated
I give love till my whole soul depleted
You say I’m too much, yeah, I know you mean it
But you the only drug where the high feel needed
Text left on read, now my thoughts run wild
Scroll through pics, see you kiss some guy
I don’t even trip, I just laugh, then lie
Tell my friends I’m good while I’m dead inside
Late nights, talk to God, but I doubt He hear
I’ve been running from the man in the mirror for years
Ink on my skin, but the pain run deeper
Smile in the day, but at night I’m a screamer
Bands in the safe, still feel so broke
I can buy new chains, can’t buy new hope
All these shows, but I feel so alone
Crowd sing my words, but I walk home cold

[Hook]
Every night I talk to shadows on my bedroom wall
Devil in my cup, but you the one I call
Heart broke, but I still let the pieces fall
If loving you is wrong, I don’t care at all
Tears on ice, I’ve been drowning in the deep end
Henny to the face just to feel like I’m breathing
Everybody left when my wounds started bleeding
You stitched me up just to leave me when I needed

[Verse 2]
Pills on the counter, phone on silent
Love turn rage, now my thoughts turn violent
Said you’d ride, now you ghost in the night
All gas, no brake, I’ve been losing my light
I put trust in a heart that was hollow
Gave you my past and a future to borrow
Now I’m stuck with the echo of your last “I love you”
Ring still shines, but the words ain’t true
Mama say pray, but I lost my faith
I just chase highs I can’t replace
Still see your face when I close my eyes
Like a rerun scene that never dies
If I pour this pain on a 16 bar
Would you hear my hurt or just rate my scars?
If I flatline now in the back of this car
Would you post my pic, say “you was a star”?

[Bridge]
I’ve been tryna heal but the cuts too deep
I’ve been counting sheep but I still can’t sleep
I’ve been losing me every time you leave
I’ve been acting strong but I still can’t breathe

[Hook]
Every night I talk to shadows on my bedroom wall
Devil in my cup, but you the one I call
Heart broke, but I still let the pieces fall
If loving you is wrong, I don’t care at all
Tears on ice, I’ve been drowning in the deep end
Henny to the face just to feel like I’m breathing
Everybody left when my wounds started bleeding
You stitched me up just to leave me when I needed

[Outro]
If I lose myself, would you look my way?
If I fade tonight, would you beg me to stay?
If my heart goes numb, would you feel that too?
‘Cause every love song still sounds like you

Dark F# minor emo trap at 162 BPM, haunting pads, sad piano and 808s, lonely night bedroom heartbreak vibe