Shadows In My Code

[Intro]
Yeah
Late ride
Mmm

[Hook]
I’ve been talkin’ to my shadows more than anyone I know
Turn my feelings to a waveform, let the 808s explode
If you see me when I’m smilin’, that’s a glitch inside my code
’Cause my heart be goin’ silent where the hurt don’t ever show

[Verse 1]
You say I never really let you in
I say I’m scared you’ll see the mess I’m in
Every “how you doin’?” feel like small talk on a cliff edge
You just want the truth, I keep handin’ you the cliff notes instead
Trauma in my carry-on, I bring it every trip
You ask me for forever, I just tighten up my grip
On all the times that “stay” turned to “sorry, I can’t stay”
On all the nights I bled alone and wiped it all away
You call it overthinking, I call it bein’ trained
To hear “I’ll never leave” and start lookin’ for the pain
If I fade into the background, it ain’t you that made me ghost
It’s just distance is the only kind of safety I know

[Hook]
I’ve been talkin’ to my shadows more than anyone I know
Turn my feelings to a waveform, let the 808s explode
If you see me when I’m smilin’, that’s a glitch inside my code
’Cause my heart be goin’ silent where the hurt don’t ever show

[Verse 2]
I’ve been ridin’ through the city with my demons in the back
Got my foot up on the gas, but they still all on my lap
Every love I ever had turned to lyrics that I rap
Every promise that I heard turned to knives behind my back
Sippin’ just to blur the edges, I don’t like the way it’s sharp
Every memory of you is like a tattoo on my heart
If I text you when I’m up, I might tell you too much truth
If I hit you when I’m down, I might bleed it all on you
So I keep it in a voice note I ain’t never gon’ send
All these verses like confessions that I whisper to the wind
You the one that see the storm whenever I say “I’m fine”
If I lose me in the chaos, will you help me find my mind?

[Bridge]
If I go quiet, I’m still feelin’ every word you say
If I fall off, it don’t mean I wanna walk away
I just learned to love from people who ain’t know the way
I’ve been tryna unlearn hurt like it’s all I ever craved
If we meet inside the wreckage where our old selves used to be
Maybe broken plus broken still add up to somethin’ we need

[Hook]
I’ve been talkin’ to my shadows more than anyone I know
Turn my feelings to a waveform, let the 808s explode
If you see me when I’m smilin’, that’s a glitch inside my code
’Cause my heart be goin’ silent where the hurt don’t ever sho

Moody R&B/emo-trap, 120 BPM, duet male vox, spacey keys+808s. Intro–Hook–V1–Hook–V2–Bridge–Hook