Shadows At My Bedside

Yeah

Lights low

Mmm

Shadows at my bedside dancin’ on the wall

Every time the room get quiet, I can hear it all

All the things I never said, all the ways I fall

If I close my eyes too long, I might miss your call

I’ve been layin’ with my demons like they friends of mine

Huggin’ pillows in the dark, tryna redraw the line

If I tell you that I’m good, know I’m probably lyin’

Shadows at my bedside, keep my secrets silent

You don’t really know me, you just know the part I show

All the chapters that I skip so you don’t ever see me low

I’ve been losin’ sleep in pieces, tryna find a whole night

Starin’ at the ceiling, watch the cracks turn to old fights

Bad dreams on repeat, yeah, they binge-watch my mind

Every “I’ll be fine” really mean I’m barely gettin’ by

You just wanna hold me, I just wanna disappear

’Cause the ones I let the closest always leave me with a fear

You say “let me in,” I say, “what you wanna see?”

All the panic in my chest or all the ways I never speak?

If I turn around and face it, will you stay or will you run?

I’ve been bracing for the exit since the second we begun

Shadows at my bedside dancin’ on the wall

Every time the room get quiet, I can hear it all

All the things I never said, all the ways I fall

If I close my eyes too long, I might miss your call

I’ve been layin’ with my demons like they friends of mine

Huggin’ pillows in the dark, tryna redraw the line

If I tell you that I’m good, know I’m probably lyin’

Shadows at my bedside, keep my secrets silent

I’ve been whisperin’ to bottles like they understand

Pour a little for the pain I can’t hold in my hands

Every voicemail that I saved sound like yesterday

Every promise that we made feel a world away

Phone light on the nightstand, I don’t touch it much

’Cause I’m scared I’ll see your name and I’ll need your touch

But I’m scared if I don’t, I’ma lose that tie

And I’m scared if I do, I’ma break inside

I’ve been livin’ in a room full of what-ifs and maybes

Same four walls, same ghosts, goin’ crazy

If I text you when I’m honest, you’d see all the cracks

If I don’t, you think I’m fine, but I’m stuck in the past

If I reach for you slow, will you pull me from the edge?

If I fall in my sleep, will you catch me in your head?

I’ve been searchin’ for some peace in the corners of this bed

You the only one that see the storm behind what I said

If the morning ever comes and the dark don’t hide my eyes

Will you love the broken truth or just the polished lies?

Shadows at my bedside dancin’ on the wall

Every time the room get quiet, I can hear it all

All the things I never said, all the ways I fall

If I close my eyes too long, I might miss your call

I’ve been layin’ with my demons like they friends of mine

Huggin’ pillows in the dark, tryna redraw the line

If I tell you that I’m good, know I’m probably lyin’

Shadows at my bedside, keep my secrets silent