Cup Runneth Over

[Intro]
yeah
too much on my mind, too much in my hands

[Hook]
my cup runneth over with the things i never say
all these feelings overflowin’, i just drink ’em all away
every time i think i’m good, they come back another day
i’ve been drownin’ in the memories, can’t swim out the pain
heart too heavy for my chest, i can feel it in my veins
smile on my face but it’s covered up in rain
i keep pourin’ out my soul like it’s nothin’ but a drink
til the bottle hit the bottom and i’m scared of what i think

[Verse 1]
late nights starin’ at the ceiling fan, spin slow
you was in my future, now you just a shadow
scrollin’ through our pictures like i’m searchin’ for a cheat code
tryna find a version where we never had to let go
every time we fought we would say “this the last one”
then we call back, same hurt, same outcome
you told me i was broken, i believed you when you said it
so i covered up the cracks with a chain and aesthetics
everybody see the shine, they don’t see the damage
they don’t see the nights when my thoughts do the havoc
you was tryna fix me, i was tryna play it savage
laughin’ through the pain like it’s somethin’ i can manage

[Pre-Chorus]
you said, “if you ever leave, i won’t make it through the night”
i been scared of every tear fallin’ out your eyes
if i stay, we both fall, if i go, you might cry
i’m just tryna find a way we both survive

[Verse 2]
used to call me just to vent when the world felt cold
now you talk to someone else, i can feel that fold
see your story with a stranger, and it cut my soul
but i pray he treat you better than i ever could hold
i’ve been tryna put the hurt into rhythm and rhyme
turn the breakdowns into somethin’ that’ll outlive time
for the kid in his room with his phone on nine
feelin’ like nobody ever gonna read his mind
you ain’t gotta numb the pain just to make it through
you ain’t gotta break yourself just to say you grew
if you hear this in the dark and it sound like you
just know somebody out here really rootin’ for you

[Bridge]
if my cup runneth over, let it spill on the page
let it drip in the notes, let it bleed off the stage
if my past tryna haunt me like it’s locked in a cage
i’ma sing ’til the chains all fade

[Hook - Outro]
my cup runneth over with the things i never say
all these feelings overflowin’, i just drink ’em all away
every time i think i’m good, they come back another day
i’ve been drownin’ in the memories, can’t swim out the pain
heart too heavy for my chest, i can feel it in my veins
smile on my face but it’s covered up in rain
i keep pourin’ out my soul like it’s nothin’ but a drink
til the bottle hit the bottom and i’m scared of what i think

emo trap, sad piano + 808s, ~140 BPM half-time. Melodic hook, light autotune, reverb on hook/bridge