Cup Runneth Over

yeah

too much on my mind, too much in my hands

my cup runneth over with the things i never say

all these feelings overflowin’, i just drink ’em all away

every time i think i’m good, they come back another day

i’ve been drownin’ in the memories, can’t swim out the pain

heart too heavy for my chest, i can feel it in my veins

smile on my face but it’s covered up in rain

i keep pourin’ out my soul like it’s nothin’ but a drink

til the bottle hit the bottom and i’m scared of what i think

late nights starin’ at the ceiling fan, spin slow

you was in my future, now you just a shadow

scrollin’ through our pictures like i’m searchin’ for a cheat code

tryna find a version where we never had to let go

every time we fought we would say “this the last one”

then we call back, same hurt, same outcome

you told me i was broken, i believed you when you said it

so i covered up the cracks with a chain and aesthetics

everybody see the shine, they don’t see the damage

they don’t see the nights when my thoughts do the havoc

you was tryna fix me, i was tryna play it savage

laughin’ through the pain like it’s somethin’ i can manage

you said, “if you ever leave, i won’t make it through the night”

i been scared of every tear fallin’ out your eyes

if i stay, we both fall, if i go, you might cry

i’m just tryna find a way we both survive

used to call me just to vent when the world felt cold

now you talk to someone else, i can feel that fold

see your story with a stranger, and it cut my soul

but i pray he treat you better than i ever could hold

i’ve been tryna put the hurt into rhythm and rhyme

turn the breakdowns into somethin’ that’ll outlive time

for the kid in his room with his phone on nine

feelin’ like nobody ever gonna read his mind

you ain’t gotta numb the pain just to make it through

you ain’t gotta break yourself just to say you grew

if you hear this in the dark and it sound like you

just know somebody out here really rootin’ for you

if my cup runneth over, let it spill on the page

let it drip in the notes, let it bleed off the stage

if my past tryna haunt me like it’s locked in a cage

i’ma sing ’til the chains all fade

my cup runneth over with the things i never say

all these feelings overflowin’, i just drink ’em all away

every time i think i’m good, they come back another day

i’ve been drownin’ in the memories, can’t swim out the pain

heart too heavy for my chest, i can feel it in my veins

smile on my face but it’s covered up in rain

i keep pourin’ out my soul like it’s nothin’ but a drink

til the bottle hit the bottom and i’m scared of what i think