Playlist of Emotions

Yeah

Mm, mm

Late night, same story

I’ve been tryna fix a heart that don’t wanna be saved

Turn my pain into a playlist, let it loop for days

Every scar that I collected got your name on the blade

Every time I say I’m okay, you know it’s all staged

I’ve been drownin’ in my head, I don’t come up for air

So I smile like I’m good, but I’m not all there

You keep sayin’ that I’m distant, I just call it bein’ real

If you knew the whole story, you would question how I feel

Lost some people in the silence, they don’t ever really heal

Cold shoulders at the table, lot of love we never sealed

You want love with no trauma, I want peace with no mask

I’ve been carryin’ every question, I got wounds I can’t unpack

Talkin’ to my demons more than talkin’ to my friends

It’s a shame they so consistent, they the only ones that never left

If I curve a couple calls, it ain’t you, it’s how I am

I got used to feelin’ empty, now I panic when it’s calm again

I’ve been tryna fix a heart that don’t wanna be saved

Turn my pain into a playlist, let it loop for days

Every scar that I collected got your name on the blade

Every time I say I’m okay, you know it’s all staged

I’ve been drownin’ in my head, I don’t come up for air

So I smile like I’m good, but I’m not all there

I’ve been pourin’ out my feelings in a double Styrofoam

Tryna call you when I’m sober but I never make it home

Voices in my brain like to party when I’m gone

Thoughts about you hittin’ like my favorite sad song

You said love me through my demons, you ain’t know they love to burn

Every promise that I made you got a lesson you gon’ learn

If I disappear a minute, don’t assume you did me wrong

I’ve been tryna find a version of myself that can belong

To somebody that ain’t fixin’ me like every single day

I’m just scared you’ll see the real me and decide you can’t stay

If I go quiet, just know I’m still in the room

If I go silent, it’s ’cause my head full of fumes

I’ve been learnin’ how to feel without losin’ my cool

I’ve been learnin’ how to love without breakin’ the rules

I’ve been tryna fix a heart that don’t wanna be saved

Turn my pain into a playlist, let it loop for days

Every scar that I collected got your name on the blade

Every time I say I’m okay, you know it’s all staged

I’ve been drownin’ in my head, I don’t come up for air

So I smile like I’m good, but I’m not all there