Help me

As I sit here, feeling all this pain, hoping for the world to end one day, hoping for god to take me away, praying for all my sins to be tamed, I don’t understand the things I say, is it just words, or do they mean anything, I think my brain is going insane, so I hold my cross, looking up to the sky, praying to god that I’m lost, praying to god, hoping he can fix my rot, bound to the ground, wishing I could fly, like Peter Pan, not to stay young, but just to die, holding my head, screaming all these tears out of my eyes, maybe one day will be my demise, but I don’t want to run, I wanna stand tall from all this pain, I know I wished I was done, but I gotta stand up and praise, god hold me dear, what do I eventually gain? Holding back these demons, man I feel stuck on a plane

Please help me god, I don’t understand my words, my thoughts, all this pain, everything I fought, all my suffering, holding back every second I bought, just to be saved, please help me god

I know I shouldn’t say shit, oh sorry for my language, sometimes I speak my mind, I’m still a sinner wishing I was fine, holding my heart out, grabbing what’s mine, I’m so selfish, maybe I could change my rhyme, but if I do that, could you understand my signs, I asking for god to save my time, I’ve been falling down this hole, feeling like I’m in a bind, now show me to be whole, before I die, your love is a miracle, everyday I pray to see your beautiful, love and grace, I think I’m Hysterical, but your love, is always plentiful, is it just me, or is my stomach full, do I feel your love, or is that hurtful, please god help me I’m terrible

Please help me god, I don’t understand my words, my thoughts, all this pain, everything I fought, all my suffering, holding back every second I bought, just to be saved, please help me god

Washing the blood off my hands, supposed to stay sober, that was always the plan, my life started in October, maybe it my be my end, the same day I was born, thinking about it hurts my friends, so I shed tears, throwing all this pain, crying to god, please take me away, knowing how life is, showing up for righteous, never knowing lifeless, jumping off the edge hoping for prizes, stop, you showed such kindness, where I was walking, my whole life I had blindness, working myself tired to show my dedication, from first to twelfth grade, trying to hold all this education, but my preparations were slowed down, all these hoes, calling up my phones, leave me alone, I’m just trying to get home

Please help me god, I don’t understand my words, my thoughts, all this pain, everything I fought, all my suffering, holding back every second I bought, just to be saved, please help me god