Working on the minor issues

If god couldn’t save me

Then no one will

Give me some hope in my pointless life, show me the future and open my mind, is it to hard to forgive my sins, or is it just me who won’t except this win, I’ll do whatever it takes, to gain your acceptance is what I praised, killing all my past just to see you one day, it feels like eternity every time i wake up, shaking so cold like my brains numb, getting so old you’d think my life’s done, but quite the opposite, surviving in the world just to be on top of it, no one listen to me now I want off this list, planing to off me, what a fucking plot twist

One day you’ll understand my pain, all these drugs going to my brain, cut wrist bleeding my life away, but I’m still here screaming and praying

Now take a seat and don’t be scared, this story has a ending I swear, could it be bad or good let’s find out, gotta listen all the way so let me say now, all my fucking life I’ve been running in the dark, haven’t seen a light and I traveled this far, doesn’t make sense when there’s night and day, it’s all in my head hoping it could be saved, did I ever tried to open up? Yes I have but they given up, dragging all my hope far beneath the ground, I started to dig my grave just to be found, what about the meds? Did they even work? Through them all out just to see them burn, how can I be free if I let them control me? What about the side effects that I just need, all this craziness pain and I won’t bleed

One day you’ll understand my pain, all these drugs going to my brain, cut wrist bleeding my life away, but I’m still here screaming and praying

So we shut the book just to breathe, but there was no ending that I didn’t see, I’m writing it now what you think I can’t read? Let’s be honest I really can’t see, the darkness from my brain, consumes me as we speak, all of my fears used to be dreams, now they’re coming true, hope is what I need, I don’t wanna just die, all these voices tell me to fly, but if I jump now all I’ll do is fall, down to the grave that I just dug, have my name on a tombstone, maybe someone might know me, who knows, that day will come knowing I’ll be dead, people will forget my name, life moves on a thin thread, so before I go, I just want you to know

Never give up as I did, life is so precious, open up your mind kid, you’ll never face my demons, for I am the one that’s made them

One day you’ll understand my pain, all these drugs going to my brain, cut wrist bleeding my life away, but I’m still here screaming and praying