[Intro]
2 a.m. glow on my phone screen
Whole room dark but my brain scream
Helmet on the dresser, keys by the door
Heart on the floor I’ve seen before
[Verse 1]
I’ve been talking to the ceiling like it’s answerin’ me back
All these shadows in the corners keepin’ track of what I lack
Pill bottle on the counter, I just stare, I don’t react
‘Cause I’m scared if I go under there’s no comin’ out of that
Thoughts race, I race ’em in the fast lane
Left hand shaky on the gas, right on past pain
Red line needle just to match my stress
I hit a hundred just to feel one breath
[Chorus]
Ridin’ through the night tryna outrun my mind
Engine too loud, but it’s quiet inside
Tellin’ all my demons they can’t ride this time
But they pull up, pull up, every red light
I just wanna feel love, but it cuts like a knife
Every time I open up, I pay double the price
So I twist that throttle just to blur this life
Speedin’ through the hurt, tryna feel alive
[Verse 2]
She said, “You got too many ghosts in your chest”
I said, “Girl, you too pretty for this mess”
Still I let her in, showed her all my dents
Couple weeks later, she was leavin’ like the rest
Same words, different mouth, it’s a rerun
Every “I got you” turn to “we done”
Now I don’t even text back, I just scroll past
Tell ’em that I’m busy but it’s really that I’m smashed
Helmet on, visor down, tears foggin’ the glass
Streetlights smear into streaks when I pass
Whole life feel like it’s stuck on fast
I keep hopin’ this ache don’t last
[Chorus]
Ridin’ through the night tryna outrun my mind
Engine too loud, but it’s quiet inside
Tellin’ all my demons they can’t ride this time
But they pull up, pull up, every red light
I just wanna feel love, but it cuts like a knife
Every time I open up, I pay double the price
So I twist that throttle just to blur this life
Speedin’ through the hurt, tryna feel alive
[Bridge]
Maybe one day I’ll slow down
Park it by some small house
Someone waitin’ on the porch like
“Baby, you can put your ghosts down now” [whispered]
’Til then it’s me and this road
Broken helmet, heavy soul
Tryna leave all of this pain in the wind
Even if it finds me again
[Chorus]