[Intro — Spoken]
Yeah…
I got too much on my mind…
And it don’t ever get quiet…
[Chorus — Melodic R&B, Emotional]
I been fallin’ apart in the silence
Smilin’ like I’m fine, but I’m lyin’
Every night I fight all my demons
Tryna breathe, but I’m still barely breathin’
And I don’t know why I keep holdin’ on
When my heart feel weak and the pain feel strong
I just want peace, I just want home
But my mind won’t leave me alone…
[Verse 1 — Fast, Sharp, Lyrical Rap]
I’ve been trapped in a room with my thoughts, it’s a prison
Every minute I’m in it, I feel like I’m missin’
Pieces of who I was, now I’m someone different
Tryna talk to the sky but it never got answers, just distance
I been runnin’ from grief with my feet on the gas
But you can’t outrun trauma, it sticks like the past
People laugh, think it’s easy, but they don’t see cracks
In the mask that I wear when I say “I’m relaxed”
It’s a war in my head, and it’s loud
I got voices that tellin’ me “don’t trust the crowd”
I got scars I don’t show, I got pain I don’t shout
I just write it in verses and let it bleed out
[Chorus — Melodic R&B]
I been fallin’ apart in the silence
Smilin’ like I’m fine, but I’m lyin’
Every night I fight all my demons
Tryna breathe, but I’m still barely breathin’
And I don’t know why I keep holdin’ on
When my heart feel weak and the pain feel strong
I just want peace, I just want home
But my mind won’t leave me alone…
[Verse 2 — Fast, Emotional Punchlines]
I got love in my chest but it turn into pressure
I got dreams in my sleep but they fade when I’m up
I keep reachin’ for somethin’ that make me feel better
But the better don’t last, it just covers it up
I been breakin’ in private, then actin’ okay
I been drownin’ in feelings I can’t even name
If you looked in my eyes you could tell I’m in pain
‘Cause the smile on my face don’t match what I became
I don’t wanna be numb, I just wanna be free
From the weight of the world that keep suffocatin’ me
I’m fightin’ myself while I’m fightin’ to eat
Tryna live with a heart that got holes in it deep
[Bridge — Melodic, Soft Breakdown]
Maybe someday I’ll heal…
Maybe someday it won’t hurt…
But tonight I’m just here…
Tryna make it work…
[Final Chorus — Biggest Emotional Hook]
I been fallin’ apart in the silence
Smilin’ like I’m fine, but I’m dyin’
Every night I fight all my demons
Tryna breathe, but I’m still barely breathin’
And I don’t know why I keep holdin’ on
When my heart feel weak and the pain feel strong
I just want peace, I just want home
But my mind won’t leave me alone…
[Outro]
Yeah…
Voices in my head…
But I’m still here…
DJButtercup
