[Verse 1]
I can feel myself
going back there again
same room in my head
with the curtains drawn in
Got my helmet on
but I’m hollow inside
hit the throttle like
I’m daring life to collide
Wind in my face
trying to scrape off the past
leaning in the curve
kinda hoping I don’t last
’Cause talking feels harder
than bleeding on the road
I’d rather lose control
than let my feelings show
[Chorus]
I’m in that dark place again
heart racing, but I play pretend
say I’m fine, say I’m fine, it’s a lie I send
too scared to call, so I call the wind
I just speed till the pain goes numb
every scar from the days I was young
I can’t trust, so I ride, come what may
I’m in that dark place, dark place again
[Verse 2]
Every time I reach
for somebody’s hand
I see fingers that hurt me
when I was too small to stand
So I ghost every text
leave them all on read
I don’t let ’em get close
they just haunt my bed
[low vocal register]
Got memories I taste
like metal on my tongue
rage in my chest
from the things that were done
So I flirt with the edge
like it’s better than a friend
if I crash, at least the pain
got a clear, clean end
[Chorus]
[Bridge]
What if I said
“I need help, I’m not okay”?
Would you still stay
when you see me this way?
Helmet on the floor
keys shaking in my hand
I’m tired of only talking
to the road and the sand
[Chorus]