[Verse 1]
Mask on in the rearview
Eyes red but I laugh like I’m fine
Speed signs look like scribbles
I treat every yellow like a green light
Engine loud so my thoughts stay quiet
Wind peel the tears off my face
If I slow down they might catch me
All those shadows I ain’t ready to face
[Chorus]
So I ride, ride, ride with my helmet on, heart off
Chasing every line on this broken road
If I crash then I crash, guess I played my part wrong
Hard to steer when the hurt overflow
I could call my mom, but I just say “I’m alright”
Smile through the phone, swallow every night
So I ride, ride, ride with my helmet on, heart off
[Verse 2]
Phone ring, I let it buzz out
Tell her “I’m busy, I’m good, don’t stress”
Hang up, then I fold on the curbside
Hands shake while I’m lacing the vest
I’m her baby, how I tell her I’m breaking
That her sunshine got stuck in the rain
So I joke, change the subject, talk weather
Hide the storm and the stain
[Bridge]
[low vocal register] If she knew ‘bout the pills in the drawer
The thoughts that knock on my door at four
Would she sleep, would she eat, could she breathe
So I bleed in the dark where she can’t see
[whispered vocals] “I’m okay, I’m okay”
That’s the script every day
Face paint, fake grace
While the cracks run deep in the base
[Chorus]