Hear Me Cry

(soft…)

Why it always loud when I’m tryna sleep…

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I hear yelling through the walls at night

Cover ears but it don’t feel right

I’m just a kid, I don’t know who’s right

I just wish we didn’t always fight

Tears fall but I stay real quiet

Don’t want nobody to see me like this

If love real, why it sound like pain?

Why our house feel like the rain…

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I be sitting in my room alone

Holding pillows, staring at my phone

Tryna play games just to drown it out

But I still hear every scream and shout

Mama crying, daddy walking out

I don’t even know what it’s about

I just know it make my heart feel weak

Every time I hear my mama speak

Teacher asked me why I’m so quiet

I just shrugged, I ain’t even try it

How I’m supposed to tell her what’s wrong

When I don’t even know where I belong?

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I hear yelling through the walls at night

Cover ears but it don’t feel right

I’m just a kid, I don’t know who’s right

I just wish we didn’t always fight

Tears fall but I stay real quiet

Don’t want nobody to see me like this

If love real, why it sound like pain?

Why our house feel like the rain…

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I remember when we used to laugh

Family dinners, we was happy back

Now it’s silence or it’s loud and mean

Ain’t no in-between, it’s just scenes

Sometimes I wish I could disappear

Maybe then they wouldn’t fight in here

Maybe I’m the reason things go wrong

Maybe I just don’t belong…

I drew a picture of us smiling big

Gave it to ‘em like a hopeful kid

They said “thank you,” put it to the side

Went right back to arguing that night…

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If I cry… would they hear me?

If I speak… would they see me?

I don’t need toys… I don’t need things…

I just want my family…

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I hear yelling through the walls again

Wish I knew how all this started then

I’m just a kid, I don’t understand

Why love hurt inside this home we in…

Tears fall but I stay real still

Tryna act like it don’t feel this real

If love real, why it feel so cold…

Why I feel so small… alone…