[Verse 1]
Hoodie on
phone face down
Same four walls
same dark cloud
Ash on the desk
tears on the screen
Typing out a text
then I backspace every plea
“Yo, you good?” in my DMs
I leave that on seen
’Cause I’m sure if I let you in
you’ll walk out like he did on me
[Pre-Chorus]
I got this helmet and this hatred
throttle twistin’ like a prayer
Streetlights smear into a painting
wonder if you’d even care
[Chorus]
I been ridin’ like I’m tryin’ to crash before the sunrise
Eyes burnin’, but I’m smilin’ in the low beams, tongue tied
Too ashamed to say I’m breakin’, so I call it “I’m fine”
If I push you far enough, then you can’t say goodbye
[Verse 2]
Engine talk loud
so my thoughts talk less (less)
Knees kiss concrete
in my head on every left
Mama said, “You’re not your father”
but I feel that same cold breath
Every time I love somebody
I start planning for their exit
So I ghost you, then I blame you
say you changed, say you switched
Really I’m just scared as hell
you’ll see the cracks and then you dip
[Pre-Chorus]
Helmet on, it’s like a mask
visor down, I disappear
If I vanish on this backroad
would you feel it in your chest or in your feed this year?
[Chorus]
[Bridge]
[low vocal register]
If I told you I been cryin’ in the shower every night
Would you hold me in that silence or just say it’s “part of life”?
If I said I kinda hope this curve don’t let me make it home
Would you grab my hands and fight me, or just let me ride alone?
[Chorus]