[Intro]
Got the visor down
Engine loud, thoughts louder
Family calling on my phone
I just let it ring out
[Verse 1]
Tryna be the good son
Show up, smile, keep the peace
Wash the dishes, bite my tongue
Swallow anger, rinse the grief
Little bro say that he miss me
I’m too stuck inside my head
Scroll our pictures, skip the visits
Leave his message on unread
Mama saying that she proud
But her voice sound thin, like prayer
I can feel the disappointment
Hanging heavy in the air
[Chorus]
I hit the gas when it hurts too much
Brake lights blur, but I won’t look up
Every time I try to give them my best
I just break, I just break what I touch
If this road wanna take me tonight
Let it take, let it take all the fight
I been running from a hand I can hold
But I push, I push everyone cold
[Verse 2]
I got a girl who say she love me
I just stare right past her eyes
See reflections of my father
All his silence, all his lies
Tell her, “you should find someone
Who ain’t drowning in their shame”
She say, “baby, let me save you”
I ride off, forget her name
Every hug feel like a trap
Every kiss feel like a debt
Rather feel the wind cut through me
Than a promise I regret
[Chorus]
[Bridge]
Helmet on tight, throat so dry
Turn the corner, almost fly
Tell myself I’m hard to love
Then prove it every single time
If I crash, will they forgive me?
If I live, can I forgive me?
If I slow this bike down, finally
Will anybody still be waiting?
[Chorus]