Verse
You told me, don’t cry when I’m gone
Like it was something I could choose
Now I wake up in the silence
Reaching for a version of you
Your jacket’s still hanging by the doorway
Your cup’s still next to the sink
I stand there longer than I should
Like you might still come back to me
Pre-C
I’ve been trying to keep believing
Trying not to lose my ground
But every night my hands start shaking
When the house stops making sound
Chorus
I don’t have a reason to be angry at God
But I can’t say I agree
You’re gone too far
And I’m still here, still breathing
I don’t curse heaven, I don’t curse fate
But I hate the silence you left in this place
If love is the answer they’re preaching to me
Then tell me why you’re not here with me
(You’re not here with me)
Verse
You fought so hard, you never complained
Even when it hurt just to stand
I watched you smile through the weakness
So I wouldn’t understand
I memorized the sound of the monitors
The way your hand felt in mine
I told you we still had time
But time was already saying goodbye
Pre-C
Heaven gained what I still need
I lost you to a war I couldn’t win
If this is mercy, if this is grace
Why does it feel like abandonment?
Chorus
I don’t have a reason to be angry at God
But I can’t say I agree
You’re gone too far
And I’m still here, still breathing
I don’t curse heaven, I don’t curse fate
But I hate the silence you left in this place
If love is the answer they’re preaching to me
Then tell me why you’re not here with me
(You’re not here with me)
Bridge
If heaven needed you more than I did
Why does it feel like I’m the one paying for it?
I still talk to you when I’m alone
Like you might hear me somehow
I don’t want strength
I don’t want signs
I just want one more ordinary night
Final Chorus
I don’t have a reason to be angry at God
But I can’t lie and say I’m okay
You’re gone too far
And I’m still here learning how to stay
I don’t curse heaven, I don’t curse fate
But I hate the silence you left in this place
If love is the answer they’re preaching to me
Then tell me why you’re not here with me
(You’re not here with me)
Outro
The world keeps moving
But I don’t know how
I say your name
And no one answers now
I don’t need tomorrow
I don’t need to be strong
I just need you
Not to be gone
I need you
Not to be
gone