Hopefully I’ll get better

no Christmas presents are under the tree

there’s no hot chocolate or Santa and his reindeer on my TV

just a dark room in my bed where I’ll sleep the day away again

I want love but I don’t need it

(or maybe I do)

I tell myself that I’m alright but only because I have to

what other choice do I have?

there’s bills to pay

dancing in the dark

alone with your ghost

our memories are my nightmares and my best dreams

it’s bittersweet

I just wished you loved me

the same way I loved you

but I’m broken now I can’t feel a thing

but maybe that’s alright

I found peace in being lonely

but it still hurts sometimes

I’m not perfect never said I was

but baby please be mine

even though I want you

I just can’t make it happen

cause I’m scared to feel that pain again

so I’ll sit alone in my sadness

but if I ever make the move

I hope that you’ll come with me

we can dance around the fireplace

cuddled up and cozy

I’ll tuck you into bed

make sure your warm

cause you’re so lovely

but for now I’ll stay this way

hopefully I’ll get better

I just love the way you’d look when you’re wearing my sweater

on Christmas Day I think I went insane

but that’s okay