Back Off

(back off, back off)

mm

I should probably back off now

right?

you slide into my routine easy

late night glow on the screen

same calm voice in the chaos

same place my head wants to be

and I keep acting unaffected

like I’m chill, like I don’t care

but one dry reply got me spiralling

now you’re somehow everywhere

I hate how fast this happened

how comfort got under my skin

one minute it’s casual talking

next minute I’m emotionally in

my brain goes red light

red light

danger when it feels this nice

but my heart goes

one more night

one more night

back off

before I get attached too hard

before your name turns into

the safest part of my heart

back off

before I lose my head

before every little silence

keeps me awake in bed

oh no no

here we go again

getting too comfortable

with somebody’s presence

(back off, back off)

yeah I should probably do that

(back off, back off)

so why can’t I?

you do your thing, I do mine

still end up talking all night

somehow you always get me

without me needing to try

and that’s the dangerous part

you make it feel too easy

I stop waiting for disaster

then my own thoughts start creeping

one shift in energy

and my chest gets tight

like my brain’s already writing

the ending in real time

green light, red light

I can’t tell what this is now

one side says run fast

one side wants you around

back off

before I start needing this

before your voice becomes

part of my daily fix

back off

before it gets too deep

before I start missing you

every time we don’t speak

oh no no

Why am I like this?

one person gets close

and my whole heart glitches

(back off, back off)

I say it but don’t move

(back off, back off)

yeah that’s the truth

I know you’re not hurting me

that’s what makes it worse somehow

you’re just kind

just real

just there

and my brain doesn’t know

how to survive good things

without preparing for goodbye

back off

before I fall too far

before your presence settles

into every broken part

back off

but don’t go too far away

because losing you for real

would wreck me in a different way

oh no no

same old fear again

wanting someone close

while preparing for the end

(back off, back off)

maybe I’m scared to need this

(back off, back off)

maybe I already do

(back off…)

why does safe feel dangerous?

(back off…)

mm-mm

too late now maybe