Nightmares

I hate sleeping lately

because my brain doesn’t stop

just because my eyes close

I fall asleep exhausted

hoping for one quiet night

then my head starts replaying people

like it’s got unfinished fights

faces I don’t talk to anymore

showing up like nothing changed

old feelings crawling back alive

before I’m even fully awake

and it feels real in the moment

that’s the part I hate the most

I wake up carrying emotions

from things that don’t even exist anymore

my body forgets it was a dream

before my mind does

nightmares

not monsters under my bed

just people I trusted

living inside my head

nightmares

same ache, different scene

I wake up tired

from everything I dream

and I swear

sometimes sleep hurts more than staying awake

one minute we’re laughing

next minute I’m abandoned again

my brain turns memories into warnings

over and over in different ends

and I know it sounds dramatic

but it follows me through the day

because once the feeling gets triggered

it doesn’t fully go away

so now I hate mornings too

hate checking my phone

half expecting old ghosts

to somehow still feel close

I’m tired of my own mind

using sleep against me

nightmares

made from real things

that’s why they hit harder

that’s why they still sting

nightmares

and I can’t switch them off

every closed eye turns into

another thing I lost

and I wake up heavy

before the day even starts

sometimes I think

my brain doesn’t know the difference anymore

between memories

and fear

everything blends together

after enough hurt

nightmares

yeah they follow me awake now

little flashes of people

I still can’t fully shut out

nightmares

and I’m tired of pretending

that sleep fixes anything

when my head keeps replaying endings

and honestly?

I just want one night

where my mind leaves me alone

I hate sleeping lately

because I always wake up feeling something again