At Arms Length

mm-mm

I told myself (keep your distance)

don't do this again

I had a plan

(yeah, I did)

mm-mm

I wasn't supposed to care

I promised myself

(not again)

not this time again

keep a little distance

don't let anybody in

don't make them a habit

don't let them become home

cause people leave eventually

(and they do)

I already know

but somehow

you slipped into my days

without me noticing

somewhere between hello

and all those conversations

I kept you at arm's length

(still did)

still found a way to miss you

kept one foot out the door

but still got attached to you

I did everything right

(or so I thought)

at least I tried to

so tell me why it hurts this much

when I never meant to

(never meant to)

oh-oh

I never meant to

yeah-yeah

but somehow I do

I wasn't all in

(not even close)

I wasn't falling fast

I kept pieces of myself

hidden in the past

never called it anything

never let it get too deep

but now the silence hits different

and it's messing with me

(and I hate that)

I thought if I stayed careful

I'd never end up here

counting hours in my head

waiting for something to appear

I thought the walls would work

(guess not)

I thought I'd learned by now

I kept you at arm's length

still found a way to miss you

built every wall I could

still got attached to you

I knew how this goes

I've seen it all before

so tell me why I'm staring at my phone

like I haven't learned before

(should've learned before)

maybe distance never stopped it

maybe time was all it needed

maybe hearts don't really care

about the rules we make

maybe I was careful

(maybe too careful)

maybe that was never gonna save me

anyway

I kept you at arm's length

(still did)

still found a way to miss you

never asked for this

never planned to

I thought staying careful

would keep me safe

(safe from this)

but somehow

you mattered anyway

(you mattered anyway)

oh-oh

that's the part I didn't see coming

yeah-yeah

that's the part that gets me

mm-mm

I never meant to

(no, I didn't)

mm-mm

you mattered anyway

(you mattered anyway)

mm-mm

I kept you at arm's length

and somehow

you got through