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notification gone

just like that

cool.

you came back in like nothing changed

same easy calm, same safe space

and I let myself fall into it

like maybe this would stay this time

late night talks, half asleep

you made my head feel quiet for a week

then one small shift, one thing gone wrong

and suddenly I feel it all

funny how fast people disappear

one second close, next not here

and maybe it’s stupid, maybe it’s small

but tonight it just hit it all

I don’t wanna read into it

but my mind already has

every silence starts connecting

back to everything I had

I’m so tired of people

making me feel safe

then leaving

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just like that

like I should be used to it by now

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off your list

like losing me was easy somehow

different person, same feeling

I tell myself “don’t overthink it”

while my chest is already sinking

and I know where this is headed

and maybe it’s not about one person

maybe it’s everything underneath it

everybody fading away

hitting me all at once today

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why does it hit like this?

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why do I care this much?

maybe it’s not even this alone

maybe I’m tired down to the bone

too many people fading out

too many things I still think about

I was already low tonight

thinking about my whole damn life

everything I thought I’d hold

everything that turned cold

and for a second I felt okay

like someone understood my brain

no pressure, no need to pretend

just comfort from an old friend

already low, already tired

already feeling unwanted, expired

and maybe that’s why this hit so hard

because I’m already covered in scars

but every time it starts feeling safe

I wait for something to change

I know people leave…

I just wish it stopped hurting

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another replayed scene

another moment where the silence

starts unraveling me

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same ache, different name

I keep hoping it’ll feel different

but it always feels the same

another quiet goodbye

another name gone dark and flat

and I’m sat here wondering why

I still take it all like that

I hate being inside my head

every small thing feels like a threat

every distance feels like proof

that people leave when they get too close

I don’t need forever promises

I just want things to stay real

don’t make me feel important

then disappear without a feel

I act strong, I act fine

but some nights it all aligns

every hurt, every loss, every goodbye

all replaying at the same time

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yeah I know this part too well

that moment when the comfort shifts

and my mind starts ringing bells

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another long night awake

trying not to take it personal

while my whole chest breaks

I’m angry, tired, feeling small

like I’ve got nothing left at all

and tonight I just can’t pretend

I’m okay losing another friend

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like I saw it coming

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and it still hurt anyway