[Intro]
don’t do this to me again
seriously
[Verse 1]
you mention somebody else
and suddenly my chest drops
one tiny thing
and my whole brain starts connecting dots
hate how fast it happens
hate that I go quiet straight away
because logically I know
you’re probably not going anywhere
but my body reacts first
and my thoughts get mean
like I’m already bracing
for another repeat
[Pre-Chorus]
you noticed the shift in me
I know you did
[Chorus]
not again
not this feeling again
not the overthinking
not the panic setting in
not again
don’t make me spiral like this
don’t make me feel safe
then accidentally trigger it
because once my head starts running
I don’t know how to stop it
[Verse 2]
I know you’re not responsible
for what somebody else did
but my brain still treats small things
like warnings instead
and I hate that
because you were actually being kind
while I sat there fighting memories
you didn’t even put inside my mind
you kept reassuring me
and I kept acting off
because part of me was stuck in old hurt
while trying to stay present in the talk
[Pre-Chorus]
I wish I could separate
you from the fear properly
[Chorus]
not again
not this feeling again
same tight chest
same fear settling in
not again
I’m tired of history repeating
tired of one small thing
turning into emotional bleeding
and I know it’s not fair
but it still feels real to me
[Bridge]
I don’t think I’m scared of losing people anymore
I think I’m scared
of feeling replaceable
again
[Chorus]
not again
don’t let my brain ruin this
don’t let old damage
turn into another distance
not again
I’m trying to stay rational
while my nervous system’s reacting
like the past is still happening
and honestly?
I’m exhausted from carrying both
[Outro]
you’re not the one who hurt me
but sometimes my brain forgets that for a minute