Ghost Mode

mm

don’t wait up tonight

I’m gone quiet again

you notice way too fast

one switch in my tone

one late reply

and somehow you already know

ask me if I’m good

I say “yeah, just tired”

but we both know

that’s never the entire truth

you tell me not to disappear

while I’m already halfway gone

head too loud again

heart dragging everything wrong

I know I shut people out

before they get the chance to leave

ghost mode

that’s what I do best

go cold, go quiet

when my mind gets stressed

ghost mode

pull away first

before attachment turns into hurt

oh-oh

you say “talk to me” softly

yeah-yeah

while I’m shutting down completely

ghost mode

but you still stay online

you got your own life

I got mine too

still somehow

I look for your name when I’m scrolling through

and maybe that’s bad

maybe I hate that it’s true

how calm feels dangerous

when it starts depending on you

I tell myself back off

don’t get emotionally deep

then end up talking for hours

like my brain finally sleeps

you make silence feel less heavy

that’s probably the problem

ghost mode

I disappear again

trying not to let someone

get too far under my skin

ghost mode

head full of static tonight

you keep pulling me back gently

like you know I’m not alright

oh-oh

I’m hard work honestly

yeah-yeah

but you don’t act like it bothers you

ghost mode

still you wait for me

I know I get distant

I know I overthink

I know one mood shift

can mess with me for a week

but you read me too easy

like you live somewhere in my thoughts

and maybe that scares me more

than anything else does

ghost mode

yeah I fade sometimes

when life gets too loud

and my head’s not right

ghost mode

but you still reach through

like you understand the version of me

I keep trying to hide from you

oh-oh

don’t know what this is now

yeah-yeah

just know you calm me down

ghost mode

and somehow you stay anyway

mm

don’t wait up tonight

…actually maybe do