[Intro]
one notification
and suddenly my night’s ruined
cool
[Verse 1]
I see your name
my stomach drops instantly
hate that you still have
that kind of effect on me
because logically?
I know exactly who you are
but my body still reacts first
like it forgot all the scars
and that makes me angry
[Pre-Chorus]
why do I still check for you
like I expect a different ending?
[Chorus]
one notification
that’s all it takes
to drag me backwards
for a whole damn day
one notification
and I’m right back there
hating you
but still checking if you care
oh-oh
I wish I could switch this off
yeah-yeah
your name still hits too hard
[Post-Chorus]
(la-la-la)
why am I still looking?
(la-la-la)
god, I hate this feeling
[Verse 2]
I tell myself don’t answer
don’t open that door again
then sit there staring at my screen
like maybe this time you’ll act different
it’s embarrassing honestly
how long damage sticks around
how one person can leave
their voice inside your head that loud
and maybe I don’t miss you
maybe I miss who I was before
before your name became something
I physically can’t ignore
[Pre-Chorus]
I hate that one small message
can still ruin my whole mood instantly
[Chorus]
one notification
that’s all it takes
to make me spiral
for the rest of the day
one notification
and I lose my cool
acting like I’m over it
while still checking for you
oh-oh
why do I still react like this?
yeah-yeah
god I wanna break this habit
[Bridge]
I don’t want you back
let’s be clear on that
I just hate
that part of me still waits
even after everything you did
you left echoes everywhere
now every notification feels loaded
[Chorus]
one notification
and my whole chest sinks
all the healing disappears
for a couple seconds instantly
one notification
still gets under my skin
like some version of me
never fully escaped this
oh-oh
I’m tired of your shadow now
yeah-yeah
tired of checking, checking
one notification…
and suddenly I miss who I was again
[Outro]
screen goes dark
and I still look twice
mm-mm
hate that about me
Beexii