[Intro]
mm-mm
another morning again
(again, again)
…okay
[Verse 1]
wake up heavy again
like sleep never really worked
(never worked)
whole chest full of something aching
whole body physically hurt
sunlight through my blinds
feels too bright for my head
(too bright now)
another day already asking things from me
before I even leave the bed
and I keep moving automatically
replying, talking, showing face
(showing face)
while somewhere underneath all that
I feel myself fading away
quietly
[Pre-Chorus]
honestly?
I don’t know how people do this every day
without breaking
(without breaking)
[Chorus]
why am I still here
when everything hurts this much?
(say why)
same heavy feeling in my chest
same emptiness showing up
why am I still here
still breathing through the ache?
(breathe through it)
smiling in conversations
while mentally slipping away
oh-oh
I feel disconnected lately
(disconnected lately)
yeah-yeah
like I’m watching life without me
why am I still here
when I don’t feel alive anymore?
[Post-Chorus]
(la-la-la)
still here somehow
(still here now)
(la-la-la)
even if I’m breaking down
[Verse 2]
I go quiet because talking hurts
smiling hurts too honestly
(honestly)
everything feels exhausting lately
even things that used to comfort me
and nobody really notices
how bad it gets inside my head
(inside my head)
because I got too good at saying
“I’m fine” instead
but I’m tired
deep in my bones tired
(so tired)
deep in my heart tired
the kind sleep never fixes
the kind that follows you around
like a shadow you can’t outrun
(can’t outrun)
[Pre-Chorus]
I think part of me disappeared somewhere
and I don’t know how to bring it back
(bring it back)
[Chorus]
why am I still here
still dragging myself through days?
(through days)
still carrying pain
that never really fades?
why am I still here
when my whole soul feels numb?
(feels numb now)
trying to survive life
while emotionally coming undone
oh-oh
I wanna feel okay again
(okay again)
yeah-yeah
or at least feel less empty
why am I still here
if life keeps feeling like this?
[Bridge]
I don’t wanna disappear
I just wanna stop hurting
(stop hurting)
there’s a difference
…but nobody hears that part
late nights
(blank stare)
heart heavy
(still there)
[Chorus]
why am I still here
when I feel this broken inside?
(broken inside)
still waking up every morning
just to barely survive?
why am I still here
…maybe I don’t know yet
(don’t know yet)
but some tiny shattered part of me
still isn’t ready to quit
oh-oh
even hurting I keep going somehow
(keep going somehow)
yeah-yeah
even lost I’m still around
why am I still here…
maybe I’m still trying to find out
[Outro]
mm-mm
same morning
same ache
(same ache)
still here anyway
Beexii