Everything I carried

(Verse 1)

I've walked through heat on Arizona streets,

Holding my babies close when life pulled at my feet.

Sleeping with worries that never let me rest,

Trying to smile for my kids when my heart's a mess.

I've buried dreams and angel wings too soon,

Avery Rose, I still talk to the moon.

Aurora Rosealynn, Alíze Amora too,

Andrew Jr., part of me still belongs to you.

Cancer keeps knocking, surgeries leave scars,

Some nights I wonder how I made it this far.

But I wake up fighting, even when I break,

For the ones I love and every breath I take.

(Chorus)

I'm carrying everything, but I'm still standing here,

Through every loss, every heartbreak, every tear.

Through empty cupboards, lonely nights, and pain,

I keep getting back up when life knocks me down again.

I've loved through prison walls, through miles and years,

Through promises, doubts, and all my fears.

And if my heart's still beating after all I've been through,

It's because love keeps pulling me back to you.

(Verse 2)

Drew, you're locked away but you're never far,

I still see your face when I look at the stars.

Since January fifteenth, you've been my king,

The reason I still believe in forever things.

Some days I'm angry, some days I just cry,

Wondering why life keeps passing us by.

Wanting you beside me when the nights get long,

Wanting you to remember where we belong.

Abby, Laney, Juju, Frank, and Keighliana,

You're the reason your mama keeps moving forward.

When the world says quit, when my soul feels worn,

You remind me why I keep hanging on.

(Chorus)

I'm carrying everything, but I'm still standing here,

Through every loss, every heartbreak, every tear.

Through empty cupboards, lonely nights, and pain,

I keep getting back up when life knocks me down again.

I've loved through prison walls, through miles and years,

Through promises, doubts, and all my fears.

And if my heart's still beating after all I've been through,

It's because love keeps pulling me back to you.

(Bridge)

I ain't asking life to be fair anymore,

I've seen what survival looks like at its core.

I've carried grief, I've carried hope,

I've carried more than most people know.

But these scars on my heart tell a story of grace,

Of a woman who refused to be erased.

And when my angels look down from above,

I pray they still feel their mama's love.

(Final Chorus)

I'm carrying everything, but I'm still standing here,

Through every loss, every heartbreak, every tear.

Through cancer, through distance, through all I've survived,

Somehow I'm still breathing, somehow I'm alive.

And when the day comes that we're all together again,

No more walls, no more pain, no more wondering when.

I'll hold the ones I love and thank God I made it through,

After everything I've carried...

Love is what carried me too. ❤️