Hold me through it again

Verse 1

I woke up from the surgery, thinking I'd fought enough,

A scar down my back, praying I'd finally seen the worst.

They said they got the nodule, said now we wait and see,

So I held onto hope with every broken piece of me.

Days turned into phone calls, doctors reading every line,

Then the words came crashing down and shattered all peace of mind.

The pathology came back, and my whole world caved in,

A malignant solitary fibrous tumor... now the battle starts again.

Pre-Chorus

I thought I'd already paid the price,

Thought I'd already walked through fire,

But now they're saying open me up again,

And I'm so tired...

Chorus

I'm scared of going through it all over again,

The hospital lights, the pain, the fear settling in.

I'm scared of waking up wondering what they'll find,

Scared of losing pieces of myself one surgery at a time.

But all I want is my babies and my husband by my side,

Holding me so tight when I break down and cry.

Saying, "You got this, Mom," and "Baby, you'll be alright,"

When the darkness gets heavy and I can't see the light.

Verse 2

Every ache reminds me of the road I've already walked,

Every sleepless night is filled with the things I can't stop.

Thinking about the what-ifs, the things nobody can know,

Trying to be strong while feeling terrified below.

I don't need promises that nobody can keep,

I just need the ones I love wrapped around me when I weep.

Because courage isn't fearless, it's trembling and still trying,

Finding reasons to keep fighting when your heart feels like it's dying.

Pre-Chorus

And some days I feel so small,

Like this mountain's way too high,

But then I hear the voices of the ones I love,

And somehow I survive.

Chorus

I'm scared of going through it all over again,

The hospital lights, the pain, the fear settling in.

I'm scared of waking up wondering what they'll find,

Scared of losing pieces of myself one surgery at a time.

But all I want is my babies and my husband by my side,

Holding me so tight when I break down and cry.

Saying, "You got this, Mom," and "Baby, you'll be alright,"

When the darkness gets heavy and I can't see the light.

Bridge

So if I fall apart, don't let go of my hand,

Help me remember I'm stronger than I understand.

And if I'm crying from the weight of what tomorrow brings,

Just hold me close and remind me I can do hard things.

Tell me this isn't the end of my story,

Tell me there's still more chapters to write.

Tell me we'll make it through this together,

One day, one prayer, one fight.

Final Chorus

I'm scared of going through it all over again,

But I'm not walking through this battle alone.

I've got my children, I've got my husband,

I've got a love that feels like home.

So hold me tight when the fear won't let me sleep,

Tell me I'm stronger than the pain that's buried deep.

Say, "You got this, everything will be alright,"

And I'll keep fighting through the darkness,

Until I find the light.