Letters I still send pt2

(Verse 3)

I just want to breathe again,

Feel normal in my skin,

Not feel like every fight we face

Is something I walked us in.

They used my mental health to paint

A picture dark and wild,

But none of them have seen me

Crying for my child.

Without my kids there’s no reason—

I said that once in rage,

But still I wake up fighting

Every single day.

And even with you distant,

Even with this ache,

I’m still the girl who’d choose you

With every risk I take.

(Final Chorus)

Concrete between us, bars and doubt,

You say it’s the world that pushed you out.

But I’m still the one writing letters long,

Still turning our pain into song.

I’m scared I’m not enough for you,

Scared you’ll find someone new,

Scared one day you’ll stop saying

“I love you” like you used to do.

But through courtrooms and hospice,

Through anxiety storms that grew,

Through anniversaries counted

And vows I still hold true—

If you ever read these letters,

If you ever feel them too,

Know every poem, every song

Was me fighting for you.

Concrete between us,

Blame in every breath—

But I’m still your queen in love,

Even if it’s loving you to death.

(Final Chorus)

Concrete between us, miles in our hearts,

You say it’s the world tearing us apart.

You say it’s accusations,

You say it’s all the stress,

But I feel you slipping further

With every less and less.

I’m scared I’m a failure,

Scared I’ll lose it all,

Scared you’ll stop loving me

Before I get your next call.

Still I’m loving you fiercely,

Through hospice tears and courtrooms blue,

Through anxiety storms and the fear of losing you.

If you walk away, just know it’s true—

I fought the world, I fought my mind,

I fought for our kids and I fought for you.

But concrete between us

Is stronger than what we knew

(Separate Part – Cry Out)

Love me the way I emptied myself for you.

The way I gave up comfort, sleep, pride—

Just to make sure you had everything.

I went without so you could have.

Skipped what I needed so you wouldn’t lack.

Made sure your books were filled,

Your stomach wasn’t empty,

Your name was defended,

Your ego protected.

I gave up pieces of me, Drew—

Quietly.

Willingly.

Completely.

While I was fighting courts for our babies,

Shaking in hospice hallways alone,

Drowning in anxiety I never showed—

I was still making sure you were okay.

I wore the same pain every day

So you could feel a little less of yours.

I swallowed my fears of you leaving,

Of you choosing someone else,

Of you playing me

Like everyone else has before.

I gave you loyalty when I had nothing left.

Gave you softness when I was breaking.

Gave you every dollar, every tear, every prayer—

And you still pull away like I’m replaceable.

I’m not asking for perfection.

I’m not asking for grand promises.

I’m crying out to be loved.

Loved the way I loved you.

Chosen the way I chose you.

Held the way I held you up

When I was falling apart.

I gave up everything for you, Drew.

Don’t let me be just another woman

Who gave her all

To a man who only took.

If loving you is wrong I'm gone!!!