Why try? I try

Can someone explain to me why it feel like I’m just burning inside. Something just twisting my mind around. Spreading my scatter soul on the ground. And people not even making a sound. Every day is another fake smile. Trying to keep everybody happy for a while.

Cause the truth is my childhood was a mess. Lost my mom I felt that shit in my chest. Many nights I couldn’t even get rest.

I thought life would be good, but I was just stuck in my head. Locked in that room feeling like I’m dead. Family never understood the word I said.

So I stayed quiet and I ended up bleeding instead.

I thought I can handle it I didn’t think it was a threat. But the older I get to isolation in my head gets louder when I lay in bed.

It’s hard to see the light just knowing my shadow has part of my Darkside. I swear he’d be looking through my eyes. Laughing at the things that I despise.

I’m scared to know what’s really inside. For so long I was locked in my mind not knowing if I’m really gonna be fine.

Trust me this year was a wild ride. I have my life flash before my eyes. I don’t know why I wasn’t scared to die. I guess I accepted my fate in life. This pain and agony is just another daily fight.

Me just wishing it was subside just cut the bad memories out of my life.

And get rid of this mental health that’s like a python wrapped around me, making it hard to breathe about to finish me one gulp, I guess we’ll see

Unraveling my pad is a hard thing to get past cause then I get in my head and I feel like I’m just right back back to bleeding and being sad

I know I need to live life, but it’s like my soul rather just fled away from me. Yeah that’s what I said. I’m so cold bones cracking from the load. Hopefully I can make it through before I fold, but I’m not talking about no poker game. But I got four aces. I guess I’m not so lame…

So I’m a reach for that plane I don’t care if it burns. I’m gonna end this game because I have that fame….

Shhh name I think you’re insane. I better stay in my lane. if I say too much, the government is gonna know who to blame let me tell you this the government knows this words about to go up in flames.

Trust me, the vibration in the air has changed. This word is getting boring. That’s what people mourning their feelings. The human brain is something exciting. Maybe even something frightening.

These Gen Z are starting to believe in that we are truly his kin the one that took away our sins