[Intro]
Heart on the table
Ash in my lungs
I kept chasing danger
Till danger was gone
[Verse 1]
Mama said, "slow down"
I heard it, but I sped up
Playing with the same flame
Bragging that I never get cut
Late calls, short money
Cold eyes when the trust broke
Lied through my teeth, then I laughed
Like it’s just jokes
I kept spinning that wheel
Like I’m built for the crash
Every red flag in my face
I treated like flags at a match
Lost nights, lost names
Still thought I could never lose you
Every choice crooked, but
I kept saying, "I choose you"
[Chorus]
I kept making wrong choices till you left (till you left)
Never learned the lesson till you stepped (till you stepped)
You were the closest thing I ever had to home
Didn’t feel the fire till I stood here alone
Yeah, I kept making wrong choices, now you gone
Now the bed too big and the nights too long
Had to lose what I loved just to see what I’d done
Now I’m walking through the dark
Just to die like I was, or become someone
[Verse 2]
You cried on the stairs
I was counting my sins like scores
Said, "you always come back"
You said, "not this time anymore"
Door slam, echo
Silence like a hand on my throat
Saw my own shadow
Looking at a man I don’t know
All of the pride I was flexing
Turned into rust on my tongue
Every excuse that I worshipped
Sounded so small on my lung
Had to watch you disappear
To understand what I held
I was busy dodging heaven
While I built my own hell
[Chorus]
I kept making wrong choices till you left (till you left)
Never learned the lesson till you stepped (till you stepped)
You were the closest thing I ever had to home
Didn’t feel the fire till I stood here alone
Yeah, I kept making wrong choices, now you gone
Now the bed too big and the nights too long
Had to lose what I loved just to see what I’d done
Now I’m walking through the dark
Just to die like I was, or become someone
[Bridge]
[violin rises, distant choir]
Cold floor, both knees
Talking to a cracked screen
Saying, "if you ever hear this
Know I finally see what you mean"
Same streets, new steps
I don’t move how I used to
Every door that I don’t kick down
I’m thinking how it would bruise you
[Chorus]
I kept making wrong choices till you left (till you left)
Never learned the lesson till you stepped (till you stepped)
You were the closest thing I ever had to home
Didn’t feel the fire till I stood here alone
Yeah, I kept making wrong choices, now you gone
But I turned that loss to a different song
Had to lose what I loved just to see what I’d done
Now I’m walking through the dark
Not to die like I was
But to become someone (yeah)