been runnin’ on empty
Ain’t no bread in my life that can really fill me
So I’m out here searchin’ in the dark
Tryna find a spark
Chasin’ what shine, what distract my mind
If it pull my focus, I’ll give it my time
I pour in deep till it run its course
Then I’m back to the void like it’s nothin’ more
I know it ain’t right but it keep me steady
Temporary highs keep my chest from heavy
Every piece I grab don’t ever quite fit
Still I hold on tight like “this might be it…”
I been lookin’ for somethin’ to fix me
Anything strong enough to shift me
If you got it, don’t play, come get me
Searchin’ for someone to bend me
Not break me into pieces
Don’t come soft, come strategic
I wear my heart outside, can you see it?
No one to talk to, got me overthinkin’
Wide open, heart still beatin’
I’m not encrypted or scripted
Just need lifted… just need lifted
If I was a flower, I just need you to pick it
You can question what I stand on
I just need you put your hands on
My thoughts when they run too wild
You steady me without sayin’ “calm down”
That control? yeah it’s subtle, not loud
That’s the kind that pull me in now
Don’t just love me when it’s easy
Don’t just want me when I’m light
If you gon’ bend me, better mean it
Stay the same through every side
You don’t rush me, you align me
Pull me closer when I’m fightin’
Make me softer without takin’ power
That’s a rare kind… make me act right
Got me prayin’ different, thinkin’ clearer
Lookin’ in the mirror
Bend me… make me better