Composure

Crazy how fast good intentions turn to a mess

Testing my limits

Pulling demons out my chest

I already deal with enough, don’t need the extra stress

Mind overloaded, feel it pushing me to the edge

I been trying so hard just to hold myself together

Smile through the chaos while praying for better

And honestly im exhausted

Mentally drained, emotionally cautious

Just adding more bricks to the cage that im locked in

Trying not to lose control, plot twist

Cause once you finally break down

You look damaged and monstrous

People act like they couldnt stop it

Whole time plottin

For you to fall down

So they can fill their pockets

Im trying to keep my composure

I’m tired of living in a world so reactive Where hurt people hurt people and call it passion

They love it like an addict

So focused on self love they forget to have compassion

So I hold my composure

Even when the pressure pulls me closer

To becoming everything that hurt me before

But pressure make diamonds

And im a diamond at my core

I refuse to lose myself to this war

Its like a nuclear explosion with negative exposure

I just pray through it and try to keep my composure

This world need healing

But everybody bleeding on each other instead

Passing pain around like money

Till empathy end up dead

Everybody fighting battles nobody can see

Everybody leaving damaged mentally

I pray the world sees better days

More love, less hate

More healing, less rage

Cause right now it feels like nobody’s safe

Everybody hating while smiling in your face

Still I hold my composure

Even when I feel like I'm gonna break

I could let the anger take control

But bitterness damages the soul

So I breathe through every moment

Even when my heart feels broken

I just wanna get some closure

But Till then… I'll just keep my composure.