[Intro]
Yeah…
You ever smile through it all just so nobody see the rage?
Mm…
I remember everything.
[Verse 1]
I don’t bother people, I stay low-key with mine
Still they throw dirt on my name like it’s part-time
Whole time I was showing love, giving out grace
Now I gotta watch fake love switch up in my face
People walk away and don’t explain nothing
Cold shoulders, no closure, now I hate trusting
Then they act like I’m supposed to just move on
Like them late-night texts and them words ain’t strong
I remember every message, every lie sent
Every time I cried alone, every night spent
Thinking maybe I was tripping, maybe I was wrong
Till the disrespect kept playing on and on
Got people hating on me ‘cause I got something they don’t
Ain’t even gotta brag, they just know and they won’t
Respect it
So they throw shade and disguise it as protection
Funny how jealousy always come with aggression
Ya sister hate on me ‘cause I got a Charger like she used to
Mad ‘cause I stayed solid and she used to
Tryna paint me as the villain for attention
Meanwhile I’m fighting demons every second
[Pre-Chorus]
‘Cause I could hit ‘em where it hurt if I wanted to
Could expose every secret that they running to
Could make one call, put ‘em deep under dirt too
But I been hurt before… I can’t become you
So I bite my tongue till it bleed sometimes
Hold my tears in when I grieve sometimes
Everybody think I’m strong all the time
But anger and pain be crossing that line
[Chorus]
I’m fighting back tears ‘cause I’m mad right now
Trying not to crash out bad right now
People did me dirty then they laugh right now
Like I’m supposed to heal that fast right now
And I don’t wanna hurt nobody
Even when they hurt me first
‘Cause I know what that pain feel like
I know what that curse worth
I remember all the words
All the texts, all the lies
Now they wondering why
There’s pain behind my eyes
[Verse 2]
I gave chances more than people gave me
That’s why betrayal never really phase me
Just disappoint me
‘Cause deep down I still want peace
Even with all this pressure on me
I be fighting thoughts I never say aloud
Trying not to let revenge make me proud
Trying not to let the anger take control
Trying not to lose myself to save my soul
And what hurt the most?
Half the people hating used to sit close
Used to eat with me, laugh with me, ride with me
Now they gossiping and lying on my name publicly
But I still don’t wish death on ‘em
Still pray God put His hands on ‘em
‘Cause pain made me cold, but not heartless
I just got scars people can’t process
[Outro]
Mm…
Everybody got a breaking point
Mine just quieter than most
And that’s the scary part…
Yeah.
Diabla
