Don’t know what it cost

Yeah…

You ever smile through it all just so nobody see the rage?

Mm…

I remember everything.

I don’t bother people, I stay low-key with mine

Still they throw dirt on my name like it’s part-time

Whole time I was showing love, giving out grace

Now I gotta watch fake love switch up in my face

People walk away and don’t explain nothing

Cold shoulders, no closure, now I hate trusting

Then they act like I’m supposed to just move on

Like them late-night texts and them words ain’t strong

I remember every message, every lie sent

Every time I cried alone, every night spent

Thinking maybe I was tripping, maybe I was wrong

Till the disrespect kept playing on and on

Got people hating on me ‘cause I got something they don’t

Ain’t even gotta brag, they just know and they won’t

Respect it

So they throw shade and disguise it as protection

Funny how jealousy always come with aggression

Ya sister hate on me ‘cause I got a Charger like she used to

Mad ‘cause I stayed solid and she used to

Tryna paint me as the villain for attention

Meanwhile I’m fighting demons every second

‘Cause I could hit ‘em where it hurt if I wanted to

Could expose every secret that they running to

Could make one call, put ‘em deep under dirt too

But I been hurt before… I can’t become you

So I bite my tongue till it bleed sometimes

Hold my tears in when I grieve sometimes

Everybody think I’m strong all the time

But anger and pain be crossing that line

I’m fighting back tears ‘cause I’m mad right now

Trying not to crash out bad right now

People did me dirty then they laugh right now

Like I’m supposed to heal that fast right now

And I don’t wanna hurt nobody

Even when they hurt me first

‘Cause I know what that pain feel like

I know what that curse worth

I remember all the words

All the texts, all the lies

Now they wondering why

There’s pain behind my eyes

I gave chances more than people gave me

That’s why betrayal never really phase me

Just disappoint me

‘Cause deep down I still want peace

Even with all this pressure on me

I be fighting thoughts I never say aloud

Trying not to let revenge make me proud

Trying not to let the anger take control

Trying not to lose myself to save my soul

And what hurt the most?

Half the people hating used to sit close

Used to eat with me, laugh with me, ride with me

Now they gossiping and lying on my name publicly

But I still don’t wish death on ‘em

Still pray God put His hands on ‘em

‘Cause pain made me cold, but not heartless

I just got scars people can’t process

Mm…

Everybody got a breaking point

Mine just quieter than most

And that’s the scary part…

Yeah.