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Lyrics
[Male]
I… hate… who I am now…
I’ve… lost… myself I know how
I look in the mirror…
But the old me ain’t around…
[Female]
Laid up… in helllll
Stuck with the nowwww
I only wanted life,
Never knew it could turn around.
I had plans
I had roads…
I had places left to go.
If somebody showed me what was coming,
Would I have lived differently knowing?
I miss the freedom,
I miss the sound,
I miss the person I was
Before my whole world turned upside down.
It’s hurting now…
Hurting to know…
There was a last time for everything
And I didn’t even know.
[Male]
If only I knewwwwww
What was waiting down the road…
If only I knewwwwww
How much I was about to lose…
I would’ve slowed down,
I would’ve looked around,
I would’ve appreciated every little thing
I never thought twice about.
Changes would’ve been made,
Maybe things wouldn’t be the same.
Now I’m stuck asking questions
That’ll never give me yesterday.
And I hate who I am now,
Not because I wanted to—
I just can’t stop comparing
Everything I am
To everything I used to do.
[Female Hook]
I… hate… who I am now
I’ve… lost… myself I know how
Wish I knew what was coming,
Wish more have warned me somehow
I… miss… who I was then…
I’d give anything to feel him again.
I never knew I was living
The days I’d spend forever missing…
If only I knew back then…
[Male]
Things could’ve been different,
This ain’t what I imagined.
Sometimes I close my eyes
And start asking to go backwards.
I lived like tomorrow was promised,
Like everything would stay the same.
Never thought ordinary moments
Would become the ones that bring me pain.
Now memories hit differently.
Things I barely noticed then
Feel like everything to me.
Walking without thinking,
Going wherever I pleased,
Getting up and leaving
Without needing anything.
I didn’t know that was paradise
Until paradise became a memory.
[Female]
Trying to escape my mind,
But the walls keep closing tighter.
Every memory of who I was
Makes the present feel much harder.
Can’t walk my old path anymore,
And accepting that still tears me apart.
Everybody sees that I survived,
But they don’t see the grieving in my heart.
Tossing and turning every night,
Fighting thoughts I never invite.
I wouldn’t wish these nights
On anybody living another life.
[Male]
I hate feeling broken.
I hate feeling unnoticed.
Somebody see me now
Before I disappear inside these moments.
I’m stuck inside a lonely mind,
Looking backward all the time.
Trying to find that piece of my soul
That still remembers what it felt like to be alive.
I know I’m still here
But sometimes that’s the hardest truth.
Because the person that I am now
Still feels like somebody new.
[Hook]
I… hate… who I am now…
I’ve… lost… myself I know how
I wish I knew what was coming,
Maybe I would’ve held life tighter somehow.
I… miss… who I was then…
Before everything became “remember when”
I never knew those ordinary days
Maybe I would’ve held life tighter somehow.
I… miss… who I was then…
Before everything became “remember when”
Yeah I “do” (ohh)
Details
GeneratedAug 17, 2026
Duration5:08
LanguageEnglish
Style
dark sad emotional folk-pop, rap / cinematic acoustic pop, 72–78 BPM, 4/4, B# minor
Credits
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