Meant To Be Gone

Yeah…

Rain on the windshield again

Another night feelin’ hollow

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I been holdin’ all this weight inside my chest

Everybody say “be strong,” but I got nothin’ left

Used to walk around like I could fight the world alone

Now I stare into the dark feelin’ meant to be gone

Bills stack high, pride sink low

Fake ass smile everywhere I go

Supposed to be the rock, supposed to lead the way

But some days I can’t even survive the day

Feel less than a man when I break down cryin’

Tell ‘em “I’m okay” while my soul stay dyin’

Bottle on the counter, memories in the sink

One more sleepless night and I don’t know what to think

Nobody sees the war behind my eyes

Only hear “I’m fine” and believe the lies

Screamin’ in silence while the whole world moves on

Like maybe I was never meant to belong

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And I hate what I became

Every scar, every shame

If I disappeared tonight

Would they even know my name?

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I feel less than a man

Broken where I stand

Tryna hold the world together

With these shaking empty hands

Everybody got somebody

But I fight this war alone

And lately I’ve been feelin’

Like I’m meant to be gone

Meant to fade with the night

Meant to lose every fight

Tell myself “just breathe”

But it never feels right

Surrounded by people

Still cold to the bone

God, why do I feel

Like I’m meant to be gone?

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Late drives while the rain hit hard on the glass

Thinkin’ ‘bout the old me buried in the past

Used to have dreams bigger than this pain inside

Now I just lock everything away and hide

Tired of pretending I ain’t fallin’ apart

Tired of carryin’ grief in the back of my heart

Every conversation feel fake these days

Everybody leaves when the light start to fade

Depression got a voice that sound way too real

Tellin’ me nobody care how I feel

Makes a crowded room feel empty as a grave

Makes a grown man feel too weak to be saved

Sometimes I sit alone with the dark in my head

Wonder if the world be quieter if I was dead

And that thought scares me more than I can explain

How easy it gets to drown in the pain

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Maybe I ain’t weak for bleedin’

Maybe I’m just tired of grievin’

Maybe these scars prove

I survived what should’ve ruined me

Maybe there’s still a part alive

Buried underneath this hurt inside

Still swingin’ in the middle of the rain

Even while I’m drownin’ in the pain

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I feel less than a man

But I’m still here where I stand

Even with this heavy heart

Still blood inside these hands

Maybe bein’ broken

Don’t mean I’m too far gone

Maybe every night survived

Means I was meant to hold on

Even when the dark gets loud

And I feel alone

I’ll keep fightin’ this feeling

That I’m meant to be gone

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Yeah…

Maybe I’m still here for a reason

Even if I can’t see it yet…