[Verse 1]
You said “see you soon”
I said “yeah, maybe”
You were scrolling your phone
I was holding my shaking
Words caught in my throat
Like smoke I couldn’t breathe through
Kept laughing at dumb jokes
’Cause crying would’ve need you
You never saw my hands
How tight they were folded
Nails in my palm
All that hurt I was holding
Thought the crack in my voice
Would tell you I’m breaking
You hugged me like always
I felt my soul fading
[Chorus]
This might be the last time I ever talk to you
Last time you hear my name the way you used to do
I say “I love you” but it don’t cut through
You don’t hear the goodbye hiding in the truth
This might be the last time I ever talk to you
Every word heavy like it’s tied with screws
If I disappear, just know it’s ’cause I loved you
More than I loved me, more than I loved me
[Verse 2]
We were in your driveway
Cold air on my skin
Streetlamp in the rearview
Lit the place I’ve been in
Part of me screaming
“Tell her what you planning”
Other part whispering
“She won’t understand it”
You said “text me tonight”
I said “I’ll try”
You said “you always say that”
Smiled, rolled your eyes
I wanted to say
“This is it, I’m done”
You just kissed my cheek
I tasted the sun
[Chorus]
[Bridge]
I miss you in the mornings
Mug on the shelf where you left it
I miss you in the silence
Your name in every sentence
If tomorrow never calls me
Promise you’ll remember
How I loved you like a storm
Burning through November
[Verse 3]
If you ever replay
These words in your head
Know I fought with my demons
Till they dragged me to the edge
Every “I’m okay”
Was a lie that I fed you
Every “I gotta go”
Was me leaving already
And if our last talk
Just felt like the others
Know I packed all my prayers
Inside of that cover
I said “take care of yourself”
You said “you too”
Didn’t know I meant
I’m done after you
[Chorus]
[Outro]
[low vocal register]
Last time I ever talk to you
Echo in the hallway, fading out the room
If love was enough, I’d still be here, too
But I’m just a shadow, reaching for you
[long silence, breathing]
[gunshot sound]
[ringing fades into distant reverb]