[Intro]
[low vocal register]
You were there when I shook
When my hands smelled like powder and smoke
You were there
Now it’s just
“k”
...and it hurts more than the overdose
[Verse 1]
You found me half-gone on the bathroom floor
Pupils blown wide, knocking on the other door
You slapped my face, said breathe, “I’m not losing you”
Held my head in your lap till the sky turned blue
You flushed my stash, watched it spin down the drain
Said, “I’ll take your rage, just don’t choose the vein”
You slept on the carpet to hear if I moved
Checking my pulse like you had something to prove
We shared cheap fries, late-night parking lot
You laughed at my scars like, “you’re more than those spots”
You answered at 4am, voice rough, still came
Now I call and I only hear the ring, then shame
[Chorus]
Why you so dry now?
Why you so cold?
You used to talk me down
When I lost control
You held my wrists tight
Pulled me from the edge
Now it’s short texts, blank eyes
Like I’m already dead
[half-screamed] Like I’m already dead
[Verse 2]
Now it’s “seen 3:12” and no reply
I scroll our old pics till my eyes go dry
You cared for my cuts, now you cut me off
You were my jacket in a January cough
I send, “I’m not okay” — you send a heart
One red shape where there used to be art
Used to write me essays, now it’s one-word rain
Little dots disappear like you dodging my pain
I miss your long rants, dumb reality shows
You stealing my hoodie, wiping coke off my nose
Now you’re all locked doors, passwords, passcodes
You turned your love into airplane mode
[Chorus]
Why you so dry now?
Why you so cold?
You used to talk me down
When I lost control
You held my wrists tight
Pulled me from the edge
Now it’s short texts, blank eyes
Like I’m already dead
[Bridge]
[screamed vocals]
YOU SAVED MY LIFE, THEN LEFT ME HERE
Halfway healed, full of fear
You said, “I GOT YOU,” where you go?
I’m clean, I’m breathing, I STILL choke
[low vocal register]
Did I drain you?
Did my darkness stain you?
Did you break your back
Just to find I couldn’t change you?
I’m scared to call
Scared you’ll let it ring
Scared you’ll read “I need you”
Like just another thing
[growling scream]
I’M NOT A THING
I’M NOT YOUR CASE
But you’re the only one who’s ever seen my face
[Chorus]
Why you so dry now?
Why you so cold?
You used to talk me down
When I lost control
You held my wrists tight
Pulled me from the edge
Now it’s short texts, blank eyes
Like I’m already—
[Outro]
[voice cracking, almost whispered]
...dead to you
But still alive
You taught me how to live
Now I gotta survive