[Intro]
Yeah
I been fightin' all four at once
Depression, anxiety, addiction, heartbreak
But I’m still here
[Verse 1]
Wake up, same war in my rib cage
Dark thoughts on replay, stuck on the big stage
Phone full of texts I ain't read in like six days
Friends say “pull up,” I just ghost like I mislaid
Pill bottles in the bathroom, callin' my nickname
Liquor in the fridge like, “Bro, we could fix pain”
Ex on my feed with a dude, that’s a sick frame
Heart do a backflip, brain yellin' “quick blame”
I been sinkin' in a silence I don’t talk about
Smile in the pic, but I’m rotten when the lights out
Everybody say "just pray," I been prayed out
Ask God why He leave me on this same route
Then I hear, “you ain't done, you just wounded”
Scars on my arm, but the story still movin'
Temptation in the room, yeah, the devil stay provin'
But my hands still empty, that’s the power I’m choosin'
[Chorus]
I’m steady on the edge, but I won’t fall back
Got ghosts in my head, they scream, I talk back
Tears on the floor, but I still push through
If I don’t run from me, I might run to truth
I been broke, I been bent, I been bruised, that’s facts
I been close to the line, but I won’t relapse
Yeah, I’m walkin' through the fire with the pain I drag
But I swear on my soul, I won’t go back
[Verse 2]
Yeah
Anxiety be drivin', I’m just ridin' in the backseat
Heart jumpin' crazy like it's runnin' from a track meet
Sweat down my palms in the middle of a calm week
Brain say “crash it,” I’m beggin' it to let me breathe
Scroll past numbers of the plug, I remember
Numb every winter, stayed high through September
Thought gettin' lit would erase all the embers
But I woke up empty, still chained to my temper
Ex hit my line like, "You good?" that's a landmine
Every word drippin' with the past, every sad sign
I could slide back, let the poison be a pastime
Or stand up, cut the cord like a bad vine
I keep a list in my notes of the reasons
Names of the people that need me this season
Mom in the kitchen with a quiet little grievin'
I can't let her see a son stop breathin'
So I lace up, talk back to the craving
Tell the old me that he ain't worth savin'
Every heartbeat is a drum, I'm bravin'
Every deep breath is another brick pavin'
[Chorus]
I’m steady on the edge, but I won’t fall back
Got ghosts in my head, they scream, I talk back
Tears on the floor, but I still push through
If I don’t run from me, I might run to truth
I been broke, I been bent, I been bruised, that’s facts
I been close to the line, but I won’t relapse
Yeah, I’m walkin' through the fire with the pain I drag
But I swear on my soul, I won’t go back
[Bridge]
[low vocal register]
I ain’t cured, I’m just honest in the fight now
Still shake, still ache in the night now
But every time I choose to stay dry, stay alive
That’s another old demon that I knock outside
[spoken] If you in this with me
Breathe in, count four, let the shame leave slowly
You ain’t what you did, you the one still holdin'
We broken, but we ain’t folded
[Chorus]