[Verse 1]
I stand in the mirror but I don’t move close
Like I already know what I’ll see the most
Something off in the way that I hold my frame
Like I’m wearing a body that forgot my name
My hands hesitate when they touch my skin
Like they’re asking permission to settle back in
And I hate that it feels like I’m out of place
In the only thing I can’t ever replace
Nothing looks different, that’s what hurts the most
No visible proof, just a silent ghost
Sitting heavy in spaces nobody sees
While the world keeps turning like I’m still me
[Pre-Chorus]
And I’m trying—God, I’m trying—to feel the same
But the echo don’t land when I say my name
[Chorus]
I don’t feel like me in my own skin
Like something got taken but stayed within
And I scream in silence, it don’t come out
Just a low, heavy pulse full of buried doubt
You don’t get to live in the shape I’m in
You don’t get to stay underneath my skin
Even if I’m shaking, even if I’m torn
I was mine before—and I’m still reborn
[Verse 2]
They talk to me like I’m unchanged
Like I didn’t walk through something strange
Like I didn’t come back split in two
One part surviving, one part untrue
I scrub at my arms till they sting and burn
Like I’m trying to force something to return
But it’s deeper than water, it won’t wash out
It’s a quiet, constant, gnawing doubt
And I’m angry—yeah, more than I can explain
At the way it lingers without a name
At the fact I’m the one who has to rebuild
What I never broke, what I never killed
[Pre-Chorus]
And I’m trying—God, I’m trying—to take it back
From the weight of a moment I can’t unpack
[Chorus]
I don’t feel like me in my own skin
Like something got taken but stayed within
And I scream in silence, it don’t come out
Just a low, heavy pulse full of buried doubt
You don’t get to live in the shape I’m in
You don’t get to stay underneath my skin
Even if I’m shaking, even if I’m torn
I was mine before—and I’m still reborn
[Bridge]
Low in my chest, it pounds, it stays
A rhythm I feel but I never gave
It shakes through my bones, through every vein
But it’s my heartbeat calling my name
You don’t get that.
You don’t keep that.
You don’t own anything I am.
[Verse 3]
I look away fast when I catch my face
Like I’m scared of the truth in that empty space
But I’m tired of running from what I see
Like I’m the one who’s the enemy
I want one night where I feel at home
In the curve of my spine, in the weight of my bones
Where I don’t second guess every breath I take
Or feel like my body’s a quiet mistake
But something inside me starts to rise
Not soft, not gentle—more like defiance
Like why should I shrink? why should I leave?
When this is the life that belongs to me
[Final chorus]
I don’t feel like me in my own skin
But I’m done letting that voice win
Yeah I scream—even if there’s no sound
Feel the bass of my heart shaking the ground
You don’t get to live in the shape I’m in
You don’t get to stay underneath my skin
Even if I’m broken,
Rin
